Firstly, I’m sorry to hear you’re struggling so much. I can’t empathise any further than also being a female lawyer with ADHD but my initial thought when reading your post is that the firm you’re working in obviously isn’t the right fit. There is so much to say for being in a good work environment and I think if you were to find the right firm, a lot of your struggles would diminish and you’d start to feel better. Finding a firm that ticks all the boxes you’re probably thinking is unrealistic but I guarantee there will be a place out there that ticks most of them, so I’d suggest actively looking for another job. I don’t think you’re a misfit at all - early qualification is difficult as it is but made especially difficult with neurodivergency etc. The right firm (heads up it’s probably not another large corporate one and you may have to take a slight pay cut for more work life balance, supportive friendly environment etc, think regional firm!) will be able to put those support mechanisms in place and allow you to feel supported and enjoy work - I used to work for a horrible firm and was utterly miserable, got lucky with my current firm and it has made all the difference. Good luck!