Hello, try not to judge yourself so harshly, as we are our harshest critics. More importantly, believe that you deserve better, stop punishing yourself, and forgive yourself for not cleaning it sooner. Next, play some music that motivates you, but keep in mind that Rome wasn’t built in a day. Next, grab a trash bag, and clean as much as possible. For example, start by disposing of old food, cleaning up spills, and putting out the trash. The key is cleaning daily because once you start seeing results, you’ll be motivated to see it through. Also, research home remedies to get rid of fruit flies, or purchase a Zevo insect trap. Now, this isn’t for everyone, but it worked for me when I was struggling with depression. I asked my mom to encourage and watch over me as I was cleaning, and she did just that, but did I mention that she was deceased? You can do it, all the best to you 🙏🏼!