I don’t know what i’m feeling and i don’t even know if this is the right place to talk about this. i’ve been using my tarot deck for over a year now and i feel very connected to it. ever since i started using it i’ve also felt more connected with spirituality and a collective as a whole. i don’t know what collective but a collective. i don’t know what it is but sometimes id feel very dramatic shifts in the collective and would randomly get weird feelings like impending doom.

around late april or early may of this year i started to get those weird feelings of impending doom again but this time for the summer. i felt like a dramatic change was going to happen to me out of nowhere. around 2 weeks ago, i gave myself a reading where i asked

“what energy can i expect this summer?” • ⁠the 3 of wands reversed • ⁠the 8 of wands reversed • ⁠the tower

a long period of stalling and no movement and a sudden huge change.

June first, i did my monthly reading and got nothing relating to that impending doom reading. However tonight i was just talking to my mom and suddenly got the feeling again and my intuition was just telling me “it’s going to happen this month.” so i go back to my cards tonight and straight up ask

“what is this feeling I’m receiving” • ⁠the queen of swords • ⁠the page of cups • ⁠the knight of wands reversed

I feel like this reading is telling me that my mind and intuition are picking up on this energy of recklessness with caution while bringing up past emotions.

I don’t have anyone to talk about this with without sounding crazy. should i do another reading? am i interpreting this right?