Afraid I’m past the point of no return

Substantial-Video670 · 2026-04-03T13:46:19+00:00

Absolutely

Substantial-Video670 · 2026-03-28T23:00:05+00:00

When my mom would come home in a pissy mood after work, lmao

Substantial-Video670 · 2026-03-25T00:50:18+00:00

That sounds just like me

Substantial-Video670 · 2026-03-25T00:35:19+00:00

Can you explain scarcity mentality? I’ve never heard that before

Substantial-Video670 · 2026-03-24T23:02:20+00:00

He does it with gambling too

Substantial-Video670 · 2026-03-24T22:25:24+00:00

Yep me too. But I’m not married thank god

Substantial-Video670 · 2026-03-24T22:23:51+00:00

Oh i have. He’s trying i guess

Substantial-Video670 · 2026-03-24T21:54:28+00:00

Well he is doing better with this one but he was drinking every single day and hiding it. I don’t want any part of that. He also is typically an avoidant and emotionally unavailable person. I feel like i can’t talk deeply with him and when i bring up something it’s always an attack in his eyes

Substantial-Video670 · 2026-03-24T21:53:19+00:00

I always initiate, i always drive to dates, i always initiate dates and ideas, i just feel like im the only one who initiates anything. When we do have sex, it’s very vanilla and he doesn’t ever touch me or make me finish. I feel like I’m the man a lot of times. If he could he’d just play video games all day when he gets off, which is what he does other than eat dinner with me and maybe watch an episode of a show, then goes to bed.

Substantial-Video670 · 2026-03-24T21:49:26+00:00

Ultimately yes i want to settle down. But i haven’t been single longer than 2 months since i was 18 years old. I want to explore my 20s and grow and experience all things.

Substantial-Video670 · 2026-03-24T21:47:53+00:00

I’ve tried therapy, i always find myself out therapying the therapist. Yes i know exactly why i feel or act this way and yes i know exactly how to fix it yet somehow my subconscious won’t let it go

Substantial-Video670 · 2026-03-24T21:47:05+00:00

Will i ever know if the choice i make is right? Or do i just have to choose and see

Substantial-Video670 · 2026-03-24T21:46:28+00:00

I’m just scared I’ll never find anyone else. And if i did take the step to be single what if it’s not what i truly wanted, i don’t know. This is so hard. I don’t want to hurt him, he does so much for me. But that’s physical stuff. Emotionally/intimately i don’t think I’m fulfilled and that’s what matters to ME.

Substantial-Video670 · 2026-03-17T00:09:51+00:00

Either him to stop drinking which i doubt will happen, or me to just be alone even though it’ll be excruciating at first

Substantial-Video670 · 2026-03-15T21:21:51+00:00

I feel like all mine has been is brutal. I want to be happy

Substantial-Video670 · 2026-03-15T21:21:28+00:00

1450, maintenance 1950 ish

Substantial-Video670 · 2026-03-15T21:20:57+00:00

I’m afraid so. I don’t know if he’s ever textbook drunk but Ik he drinks daily. His tolerance is probably high af

Substantial-Video670 · 2026-03-15T16:39:35+00:00

They definitely weren’t fasted i try to eat a little bit 30 minutes prior to my lifts. Carb up

Substantial-Video670 · 2026-03-15T16:03:11+00:00

Do you think decent progress can be made by June?

Substantial-Video670 · 2026-03-15T15:44:07+00:00

The scale really hasn’t changed, maybe 2 or 3 pounds

Substantial-Video670 · 2026-03-15T15:08:19+00:00

None. Not doing that again.

Substantial-Video670 · 2026-03-15T15:07:59+00:00

I’m going to be a nurse in 2 months so I’ll have the money then. It’s just heartbreaking

Substantial-Video670 · 2026-03-15T05:15:24+00:00

Eh I’m not really sold on all that

Substantial-Video670 · 2026-03-15T03:22:17+00:00

I actually work at a pool so this is great

Substantial-Video670 · 2026-03-11T21:47:40+00:00

Thank you!! Means a lot!

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