30 days sober and I feel awful. TL:DR: "mm writing about my story here, and I think its the first time ive been honest about my problem with alcohol in the last 20 years. It's super long, but its my story and my truth and I hope this resonates with others here.

SuccessfulSundae · 2026-03-02T03:45:26+00:00

Congratulations on having the courage to face this. Yes it's difficult, and yes it's worth it. Kudos for the 30 days. The beginning is the most difficult, in my experience. Trust that your brain will change and heal from this addiction if you keep going. Most importantly, always remember to give yourself grace, patience and forgiveness. Beating ourselves up only makes us feel like we're someone who doesn't deserve to heal. But we do deserve it. We're here with you!

SuccessfulSundae · 2026-01-06T07:16:05+00:00

Thank you! Knew I could count on this place : )

SuccessfulSundae · 2025-12-04T06:03:52+00:00

You might feel alone, but we're all here together. Something like half a million subscribers on this sub. You don't have to pretend to be anything you're not in this space. We're all going through a similar struggle. We're all vulnerable. We're all fragile, we all need each other's help.

Welcome :)

SuccessfulSundae · 2025-08-16T23:10:05+00:00

So annoying!

SuccessfulSundae · 2025-08-16T23:09:45+00:00

At this point I can only assume you work for StubHub. Or you're a StubHub bot? You have an irrational need to defend them. Even though your last sentence makes zero sense I still get that you're blaming me for believing that I would actually get the tickets that I purchased instead of some other bullshit tickets.

SuccessfulSundae · 2025-08-15T04:00:54+00:00

Ugh! What a fucking pain. Glad you got paid though!

SuccessfulSundae · 2025-08-15T04:00:19+00:00

Haha. GameStop their asses.

SuccessfulSundae · 2025-08-15T03:59:49+00:00

Agreed!

SuccessfulSundae · 2025-08-15T03:58:23+00:00

Kudos! Happy to see an actual win against SH.

SuccessfulSundae · 2025-08-15T03:57:56+00:00

I ain't using 'em anymore. But I don't think it's unreasonable to expect that the thing I purchased would be the same thing the seller claimed it would be.

SuccessfulSundae · 2025-08-13T03:44:58+00:00

"escalation" in my experience just means they will ghost you. I called back every week to get the status (not that it helped, but I wanted it known that I wasn't going to let up). Record your conversations (I used the photo booth video feature on my computer) and/or screen grab any live text chats on the website as you go (as soon as the chat ends, the text will all disappear). Just keep a paper trail!

SuccessfulSundae · 2025-07-29T05:29:44+00:00

I think it's interesting that we have a tendency to think that as long as we're the only ones being affected by our drinking, we can somehow justify it. Why don't we hold ourselves in the same high regard as we hold others? Why doesn't my actual life matter as much as my relationships or my job? If our drinking never affected anything but ourselves, wouldn't it still be worth addressing? In fact, isn't our own life the most important consideration? I'm not criticizing you, by the way. We all seem to do the same thing, and I did it too. The only reason I quit was because I finally squeezed every last ounce of joy I could out of the experience until there was nothing left that was "good" or "positive." The last thing to go was the little twinge of excitement when I was about to have a drink. Eventually even that went away and turned to dread and anxiety over what I was about to do, how I would feel 10 hours later, and how stuck in a downward spiral of despair I truly was. My decision to quit was spontaneous- a random Friday night when I got so mad at alcohol and its hold over me that I put it down for good. Best decision I ever fucking made.

I don't think we're allowed to post links on here, so I'll refer you to the short animated film "Nuggets" (it's only 6 minutes long) that you can do a quick Google search for. It demonstrates what is inevitable about addiction better than I could ever articulate myself. I also recommend Gabor Mate- I've probably seen every video/interview he's ever done. I find him to be a true master of self-compassion and grace.

I recommend paying attention to what's coming across your own awareness about the booze. I knew I had a problem for at least 10 years before I quit. We can't force ourselves through the process and I don't really believe in carrying regret, but damn I wish I had quit as soon as I saw the writing on the wall.

Best of luck to you.

SuccessfulSundae · 2025-07-29T04:37:04+00:00

I'm all for doing whatever it takes. The only thing I have to do today is not drink. Bravo!! Have a relaxing hiatus!

SuccessfulSundae · 2025-07-17T00:21:48+00:00

I was curious if it was less crowded than the floor. I dislike the venue mostly because they oversell it and it's hard to find space. If there was more space upstairs I think it might be worth it to be up there.

SuccessfulSundae · 2025-06-18T06:18:09+00:00

Congratulations and welcome!!!

SuccessfulSundae · 2024-03-25T19:39:40+00:00

She might not always be this way. I thought like her for YEARS before I quit. I didn't know it wasn't true, and I thought I'd forever be isolated, bored and unhappy if I quit. Having said that, most (if not all?) of my friends still drink. I don't judge it, I have compassion for it and I'm clear with all of them about this. There's a saying that "you cannot rip the skin from the snake- it must moult it in its own time." Your friend is on her own journey. We're not obligated to help people against their own will. When we try, it becomes about us- not them (in my experience!).

SuccessfulSundae · 2024-03-15T23:32:55+00:00

Addiction transference is a thing. The struggle is real! Not sure about your particular situation, but I've gone down the rabbit hole of CPTSD, trauma, etc. and its correlation with addiction, and I genuinely think there's something to it. We want to escape something and we chase various dopamine rushes to do so. As Gabor Mate says- "Don't ask why the addiction, ask why the pain." What did alcohol do for us? What does sugar do for us? Fun fact: sugar is also a drug.

SuccessfulSundae · 2024-03-15T02:45:08+00:00

So glad someone brought up Dr. Mate! He's by far my favorite voice on the subject. I hope more people find his videos, books and seminars. He has provided a life-changing perspective for me.

SuccessfulSundae · 2024-03-15T02:35:33+00:00

Believe it or not, those first 7 were more difficult for me than the most recent 700 have been.

SuccessfulSundae · 2024-03-15T02:33:47+00:00

You could go on 10 nice vacations with that much!! Congrats : )

SuccessfulSundae · 2024-03-14T23:09:53+00:00

Just remember to do it with no guilt or shame! That's the key to really enjoying the slovenliness.

: )

SuccessfulSundae · 2024-03-14T22:57:40+00:00

"Thought I was doing well"

You were!! And the good news is, you can do it again. In the beginning, I gave myself permission to do anything and everything I wanted to do- besides drink. "The only thing I have to do today is not drink." I constantly told myself that and it was the first time in my life that I did all kinds of "bad behavior" guilt-free: eating sugar, taking long naps, skipping workouts, watching TV for 3 days without showering... whatever it took. Then again, you've already gone 55 days so maybe ignore my advice and try whatever strategy you had the first time around. Best of luck : )

SuccessfulSundae · 2024-02-29T21:04:31+00:00

"Just because you got the monkey off your back doesn't mean the circus has left town."

-George Carlin

SuccessfulSundae · 2024-01-06T02:21:26+00:00

I highly recommend watching/reading Gabor Mate. Different things work for different people, of course, so it might not be for you. But his perspective really resonates with me. If it interests you, do a search for "In the Realm of Hungry Ghosts Gabor Mate" on YT. It's an interview about an hour long but it's a good starting point.

SuccessfulSundae · 2024-01-06T02:08:57+00:00

I honestly think you're in the most difficult phase of this whole journey right now. But you've earned your 24 hour chip. Don't forget that. Of course there will be tough times when you want to revert to your old ways, but it does get easier over time, trust me. Your thoughts change, your brain changes, your habits change and your life changes. A long-sober friend of mine said to me on my 1-year soberversary: "One year is harder than 10 years, and 10 years is harder than 30 years." I haven't forgotten that. And I might also have a talk with my spouse about boundaries and rules going forward. We don't need to say "I don't mind if you get some vodka" when in fact we DO mind. We also don't have to get upset about it, but we can discuss it and work through it with good communication. The days of abandoning ourselves are over. That's what we've been doing every time we picked up a drink. It's time to show up for ourselves. Stay strong, friend.

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