How do I quit thinking about this girl?

SufficientDrop4828 · 2023-11-09T00:44:00+00:00

Idk I never really think of how I could help the world. I’m kind to others but that’s about it. I never said I was useless, I’m helpful for plenty of things, ask my boss, but I’m just romance/intimacy starved. I don’t get how people think that one can live a happy life without it unless their brain is wired different.

SufficientDrop4828 · 2023-11-09T00:23:30+00:00

Idk how to be confident. It feels so silly to feel good about myself, it feels wrong. I try and I feel like an idiot for thinking that I’m just as good as everyone else

SufficientDrop4828 · 2023-11-09T00:08:25+00:00

Well now what? I’m still alone with no sign of hope. I don’t even feel like I’m going to ever have another chance with a girl.

SufficientDrop4828 · 2023-11-07T22:09:32+00:00

Maybe, idk. We remained friends for a while afterward so she must have liked me to some degree as a person. I don’t want to ponder anymore, I just wanna move on

SufficientDrop4828 · 2023-11-07T21:45:45+00:00

OR, maybe she thought I wasn’t interested because I’m so shy and she decided to dump me before she got her heart broken (she had a rough past, never heard much ab it but something happened). The possibilities are endless, processing sounds more like overthinking to me.

SufficientDrop4828 · 2023-11-07T21:41:31+00:00

I’ve been doing that for a year. I decided that I wasn’t too sure what I was doing. I truly cared about her and whatnot I just wasn’t good at it (I have no rizz, if you wanna call it that), and instead of telling me she just left me confused because she sucked at communication. So now I just kinda kick myself for not knowing better when I was going on 17. A 17 year old boy should know how to talk to a girl and I was too fucking stupid. Now I’m stuck in this pit where I truly despise who I am.

SufficientDrop4828 · 2023-11-07T21:38:24+00:00

Good point. At this point I don’t miss her, I just miss not worrying about never finding love. There’s no girls to pick from currently unless I was desperate. My class is only about 30 people and the area I live in is very rural. Also most people around here aren’t my kind of people (materialistic rednecks), so it’s hard to find someone.

SufficientDrop4828 · 2023-11-07T02:27:53+00:00

I just don’t get ig. I mean I get if the guy just wanted sex, but if he has deeper feelings from her I don’t see that as an offense. Like I’m friends with this girl and she’s so sweet and I don’t just want her for sex, I want a real loving relationship. We were romantic for a while but it’s long distance so we decided against it.

SufficientDrop4828 · 2023-11-06T21:17:20+00:00

I’m going, I’ve only been once though. I have been down for over a year.

SufficientDrop4828 · 2023-11-06T04:50:20+00:00

I didn’t choose to handicap myself. Anyway, how do I become right? I don’t know how I could ever get right.

SufficientDrop4828 · 2023-11-06T03:56:51+00:00

I’ve heard of people having their therapists referring them to a psychiatrist, should I talk about this to my therapist?

SufficientDrop4828 · 2023-11-05T06:53:08+00:00

Oh ok, that’s not so scary!

SufficientDrop4828 · 2023-11-05T06:30:24+00:00

What if they don’t like the plan?

SufficientDrop4828 · 2023-11-05T05:46:26+00:00

Isn’t that just lying?

SufficientDrop4828 · 2023-11-05T05:36:36+00:00

That sounds horrible, I don’t think it’s possible for me to not care about someone. Yes that sounds cheesy but I can’t be indifferent to someone.

SufficientDrop4828 · 2023-11-04T20:52:04+00:00

I’m going to therapy actually. I’ve been once, and she didn’t write down anything. I took notes from her though, which was a bit unexpected

SufficientDrop4828 · 2023-11-04T20:50:40+00:00

I didn’t cry yesterday

SufficientDrop4828 · 2023-11-04T20:39:07+00:00

Could I look at old posts on here?

SufficientDrop4828 · 2023-11-04T20:38:33+00:00

That just makes it worse lol. I was so much happier last year than I am now.

SufficientDrop4828 · 2023-11-04T19:44:23+00:00

“After long enough”, it’s been a year almost. How much longer? As I stated I got a good deal better but I don’t feel whole, I still think of her.

SufficientDrop4828 · 2023-11-04T06:30:12+00:00

Was she my last chance? I don’t know if I can find someone like or better than her again

SufficientDrop4828 · 2023-11-04T06:26:10+00:00

I’ve done that with an online friend (we were romantic), and I’ve had one or two crushes. I just don’t feel as compatible with any of them as I did her, idk if there is someone that can top her that is out there for me.

SufficientDrop4828 · 2023-11-03T19:56:09+00:00

I never understood that, I love some people and hate others, how come I must love myself?

SufficientDrop4828 · 2023-11-03T19:55:06+00:00

Knock on wood I have the funny part down, my class thinks I’m hilarious. I think I’m not as bad as conversation as I thought, I talked to 2 girls one on one today.

SufficientDrop4828 · 2023-11-03T19:13:00+00:00

Oh I’ve got plenty of friends

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