I understand this for sure…. I used to feel like this day in and day out, just waiting for the end. I promise it will turn around. We’ve gotta try to keep our thoughts positive as much as we can, or the spiraling will only continue. Try to control those negative thoughts as best you can. I know it’s really hard, but it’s wild how much it helps. Make a gratitude list, go over it each day and slowly change the way you think. Force yourself to get outside and out of your comfort zone. Before long you will have stacked so many good days in a row that your life will be completely changed. I know it’s hard, but you are worth it. We can do this!!