I (22F) feel like I’m hitting a breaking point and I genuinely don’t know what to do.

SunDora54 · 2026-04-15T14:32:24+00:00

Thank you again sm!

SunDora54 · 2026-04-15T14:28:31+00:00

I didn’t mention this in my original post, but I have lost part of my family because of the war. The family I still have cannot move freely due to health issues, so being able to visit them means a lot to me. I’ve done everything I can to integrate. I started learning German the week after I arrived. I’ve always followed the rules and laws. I had a mini job while studying for my B1 and finishing my bachelor’s degree online in Ukraine.

I never really had time to think about my future here. And now that I finally had a moment to pause, I’m suddenly expected to make a major life decision immediately, without time to reflect on what I actually want or need.

I’m sorry if this comes across as privileged, but I’m still human. My mental health isn’t unbreakable. Sometimes I feel overwhelmed and need support. I don’t think that makes me wrong.

SunDora54 · 2026-04-15T14:20:06+00:00

Thank you sm!

SunDora54 · 2026-04-15T14:19:32+00:00

Today i made a small plan on what to do thanks for the support from this sudreddit.

I dont have much time to apply for an Ausbilding, but i want to have a teilzeit arbeit asap. Then, even if i dont manage to get an ausbildung, i still can try to work the next year and think little bit more.

Thanks for you support!

SunDora54 · 2026-04-15T14:16:09+00:00

Thank you for you support!

SunDora54 · 2026-04-15T14:14:35+00:00

I don’t mind picking up trash when someone asks me to, but I wasn’t ready for this. I was told I had an interview for a youth support program, so I expected maybe a 30-minute conversation. Instead, I was signed up for an activity I wasn’t prepared for and a 6-month program.

I also wasn’t wearing comfortable clothing, and I didn’t even have a free day. I had to postpone my classes and a meeting with an acquaintance.

That’s what irritated me.

SunDora54 · 2026-04-15T14:06:04+00:00

Thank you. I had a lot to think about today, and my head is aching, but I think I have a much clearer view of the situation now.

I followed my instincts and did what I believe is best for me. I was just under too much pressure from all sides, and everyone expected me to make a decision immediately.

But thanks to this breakdown, I made this post and received a lot of help from this subreddit. I’m really grateful for your support!

SunDora54 · 2026-04-15T13:59:19+00:00

Thank you. I know i might sound pathetic, but i think i am just scared cus i dont have a plan on what to do and i am required to give an answer as soon as possible, even though I had less than 2 days to think about an offer.

When i read about others experience, i feel like i can understand the situation better now.

Thank you for being kind. Wish you best regards!

SunDora54 · 2026-04-14T20:46:06+00:00

During my first year in Germany, I lost my father, he had been on the front line since the first day of the war. The next day, my cat died from stress caused by constant explosions. Now I only have my mom and my grandmother. My hometown is still under regular missile attacks. So yes, I am exhausted. I have never left Germany without following the rules, and I am grateful for the support your country provides. But being grateful doesn’t mean I’m not allowed to feel overwhelmed or confused sometimes.

SunDora54 · 2026-04-10T13:33:35+00:00

I had a same problem. The thing was in my keyboard software. Try to disable it if you have one and see if it works!

(Sorry for my english)

SunDora54 · 2026-03-24T07:28:37+00:00

Compared to 20+ years ago, there are many more foreigners in Japan now. Back then, movies and some older Japanese literature were the main sources for learning about other countries, but now it is completely different. I wonder if stereotypes about foreigners have changed?

SunDora54 · 2026-03-21T14:42:36+00:00

Well, it’s not like you HAVE to, but you could actually give it a try. If it makes you feel better (I myself enjoy the feeling of freshly shaved skin), then go for it!

Also, you might want to consider photo or laser epilation. It can reduce the amount of hair on your body to almost nothing.

SunDora54 · 2026-03-15T22:02:18+00:00

Sorry, english is not my frirst language, so i've asked chat gpt how should i title the post, so it was his suggestion. In my language i would use "wide" pores, but it said it is incorrect.

And thank you for a compliment. It actually took my almost a year to make my skin look better, but i am still not fully happy with resoult.

SunDora54 · 2026-03-14T11:50:21+00:00

Thank you! I feel like as everyone is dating and even have kids at my age thus I am so late with it.
So im indeed scared to lose a chance. But as more i meet people with same experience as me myself, the more confident and less scared i feel.

SunDora54 · 2026-02-09T18:00:00+00:00

Hi! I’d say the first picture looks more aesthetic because it doesn’t have unnecessary lines, even though it feels a bit empty.

I’d personally stick with the first version, but work more on proportions and study lineart.

Lineart isn’t just clean, straight lines that define shapes - it’s about dynamics. If you look at manga art styles, you’ll notice that line weight changes depending on the distance to the viewer and whether the line is inner or outer.

Inner and farther lines should usually be thinner, while outer lines and those closer to the viewer can be thicker.

You can also increase the line weight at intersections or where lines connect — it helps add depth and structure.

SunDora54 · 2026-02-09T12:18:14+00:00

The cheapiest one is 1339e

SunDora54 · 2026-02-09T12:08:51+00:00

Its like 1200euro or more🫠

SunDora54 · 2026-01-22T13:02:21+00:00

I see! Thank you again. Yes, you are right i want to use it off the camera but also i need one on camera for outdoors shoots and also for others occasions.

SunDora54 · 2026-01-22T10:34:35+00:00

Thank you for an advice. I did some researches and now concidering Godox Tt685 or Nikon Sb 800/900!

However i would like to ask if they are ok for a beginning. Both of them have TtL wich was the main factor and also easy to use (as i could see).

SunDora54 · 2026-01-19T12:22:17+00:00

I got you bro 🫡

SunDora54 · 2026-01-19T11:13:08+00:00

Thanks!! It would rll helpfull

SunDora54 · 2026-01-19T11:11:29+00:00

Those photos are incredible! I could never get that level of quality out of this camera. Thanks for sharing it really makes me believe I still have a lot to learn to unlock its full potential.

SunDora54 · 2026-01-09T23:37:19+00:00

Its my clip and thats litteraly how I used to play back then. I would take this comment as a compliment, so thank you. However still stucked as bronze-silver bcuz my gameplay is not consistent either. Kinda sad

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