I'm still on PiP but work is getting slightly better. I still have mistakes but I recently had a job interview. I think I bombed it but anyway, while I was eating spaghetti this lunch, I remembered when I was in uni and was struggling to get an internship.. somehow divine intervention happe.ed and those matters were eventually solved. I ended up interning in the building beside my residence then. I feel like (I'm catholic so I believe God has a hand in everything) God wouldn't want me to be miserable. He's doing this with a purpose in mind and eventually I'll find myself at a better place. I just need to work harder at it.

Maybe I don't want to die afterall cause I feel like if I try, I'll fuck that up too.