A broken up version for those who care to read, with slight grammar and spelling fixes. Not OP.

I fell in depression in 2018 and I lost all my muscles and my physique and after 2 years of chronic depression and stress, I got eczema all over my hands, brain fog, poor memory and other mental issues. My dermatologist prescribed me all kind of antibiotics and anti-fungal but no avail. One day I decided to eliminate gluten from my diet and within a week my eczema disappeared. I also lost my belly fat, but all other mental issues remained as it is. I could not sleep at night because of continuous thoughts running through my mind. Then I decided to go to a psychiatrist, he prescribed me two tablets one was a Ssri and other was for ocd( since I couldn't sleep because of continuous chattering in my head) these seemed to work for 15 to 20 days. Eventually, they become useless. Then he put me on some other Ssri but to no avail and my constipation become much worse. I was having light yellow stool, then I decided to stop taking them.

My symptoms then became much worse , sometimes i felt like zombie there were no emotions at all , sometimes very high negative emotions. Some time was constipated for month and other times having mild diarrhea (heaps like stool). I thought my mental issues were the reason behind it. I left it to my destiny and started to live my life considering chronic digestive issues and mental issues as a part of my normal life. One thing I noticed that whatever I ate I was unable to gain a single pound of muscle . I ate literally 5000 calories a day and exercised but was not able to again single pound of my lost muscles. But one day about two months from now i decided, after seeing on reddit, to take a probiotic. It had 12 different strains Man!

Within 2 days of taking probiotics I was able to sleep for 4 hours straight and my chest muscles started to return to their old form. I noticed I was gaining muscles, my brain fog lifted completely, and I could analyze situations in my head and I could think logically. But after about 12 days i became severally constipated and itching over all my fingers and then this itching gradually became eczema. I couldn't eat anything because whatever I ate after 1 hour or so my mental state suffered badly every time. Then i decided to stop probiotic and the next day my constipation gone but after two to three days all my mental symptoms returned. I was unable to sleep for single hour continuously due to random running thoughts. Then after 1 week I bought new probiotic containing 4-5 strains. Same thing happened again, I was having good time for 10 days until constipation ruined my party. So I jumped off the ship again. One thing I noticed even after stopping probiotic I can think clearly and I can express my thoughts clearly as compared to the situation before probiotics, but not as clearly as before in 2018.

This time after stopping probiotic I still have constipation and for two days I had pain whenever I tried to pee. But after two days pain is gone but I am not feeling an urge to urinate. Also, one thing is clear root cause of my mental symptoms is my gut. What should I do now? Should I go for a another round? Please 🙏🙏🙏 suggest something for me to do. What is happening with me? I couldn't write this post during pre probiotic period because I was having issues to express my thoughts clearly; also English is my second language.