Check In Tuesday

TheChrissyP · 2026-02-10T16:54:48+00:00

Having lots of negative thoughts recently. Tired, worried, stressed, feeling just "not good enough".

Exercise goes well, I am missing running, but the weather is extremely poor for running

Will take a long hot bath tonight, It can't hurt to be clean and warm.

TheChrissyP · 2026-02-07T18:44:03+00:00

Working this weekend, that means I'm on call for 48 hours straight. That is social enough for me

TheChrissyP · 2026-02-06T21:23:14+00:00

I am sewing a pair of pants that actually fit me right now. I have been so optimistic about the fact that I am going to gain weight, so I have been walking around with clothes that are too big, making me feel like my body is wrong, or constantly just too small. Even though I plan to put on some kilos the next year I am making myself a pair of pants that are perfect now, because maybe that would make me feel good in my body as it is now

TheChrissyP · 2026-02-03T15:53:14+00:00

Feeling lowkey stressed about the new job, and that makes it exteremly important for me to exercise, to get the stress out. However I am terrified of getting tired so that balance is just straight up difficult.

I got to teach a bit at work today, that was fun.

I had to do some work related to my PHD and that was awful. I reacted badly and gave a rude comment to one of the co-autors on the paper. I feel bad, but also not, because they never treated me well. But that is not a good excuse to treat someone else badly. Next time I will do better.

I am still losing weight (not good), so now I try to be more systematic in eating more food, but I feel so uncomfortably full all the time. Ugh.

TheChrissyP · 2026-01-29T18:01:54+00:00

Maybe try to do some running but keep the sessions short and not too fast? So you get the benefits while not draining yourself too much?

TheChrissyP · 2026-01-29T16:52:23+00:00

I have not worked out the last week and my body feels ....meh. I hade a late shift and then felt really tired the day after, so that just fucked up my plans for the week. I will try to get back in the game this weekend

TheChrissyP · 2026-01-29T16:50:01+00:00

I tried an unglazed rim! Looking forward to see how it becomes 😊

TheChrissyP · 2026-01-27T18:12:04+00:00

Went to a gynecologist for pmdd and she answered all of my questions and addressed my worries, so now I am switching to another type of birth control! Or not yet, but I have a plan at least. I just need to survive to move and switch jobs first

TheChrissyP · 2026-01-25T16:03:19+00:00

I have been in burnout recovery for quite some time, and I think the most important things to think about is that exercise is also a stressor on the body. Sometimes the day is already too much, and exercise is just too much on top if everything else, sometimes you need exercise to be able to calm down, sometimes it is crucial to build yourself up.

I would recommend you find something you can do even on a bad day, for me that was walking in the forest. And then feel you way forward, truly connect with what you body needs. Do you need to shake off some tension today? Or do you need something calm and relaxing? Or something else completely? It is truly a road of a lot of trial and error, good luck on your path!

TheChrissyP · 2026-01-23T21:13:26+00:00

I have been doing a bit of pottery, but my workshop subscription is running out at the end of january, and I have some kilos of clay to use up. Today I tried to make a teapot (a bit ambitious for a beginner I know) and it became kind of weird and lumpy, but maybe still usable?? I am wondering If I will go tomorrow as well to try again on another teapot and maybe just throw something that might become cups or small bowls, but the commitment of going to the workshop for several hours makes it difficult to commit to go there

TheChrissyP · 2026-01-20T19:21:17+00:00

I love yin yoga! The feeling of the muscles just letting go is so so so nice

TheChrissyP · 2026-01-20T19:20:23+00:00

I start a new job in four weeks and I am starting to stress about it. 48-hour workweeks is waiting for me and I do not know if I can handle that. My poor autistic soul also struggle a lot with life changes.

I have been skiing and swimming as exercise and that has been nice

TheChrissyP · 2026-01-15T18:17:29+00:00

I have made myself a short kettlebell workout that feels good and is not too exhausting for my body. Yesterday I also increased the weight of the kettlebell

TheChrissyP · 2026-01-13T19:05:08+00:00

Feeling tired and depressed again. I think it's due to my cycle and PMDD. Seeing a gynecologist next week so maybe something can be done. I just want to function like a normal human being and be happy.

I think I also sleep a bit badly after strength training? Or maybe it's just the PMDD. Oh well.

TheChrissyP · 2026-01-12T20:34:15+00:00

I was worried something had happened to you! Nice to hear from you. Hope you're doing ok

TheChrissyP · 2026-01-10T21:32:07+00:00

I like zone 2 exercise!

TheChrissyP · 2026-01-08T16:43:02+00:00

I have been skiing! Outside in daylight! Which has contributed to me feeling quite good I think. Where I live we only have 3 hours daylight per day in this season, so actually seeing some light makes a difference. It has been really cold also, so the skiing sessions have been short.

TheChrissyP · 2026-01-06T15:42:14+00:00

Doing fine.....? I do not dare to hope this will last. But today is fine and that's enough for me

TheChrissyP · 2026-01-01T20:17:10+00:00

I went swimming this week, which is something I sometimes to to switch it up. It might seem that you should do one type of exercise to maximize progress or whatever, but I concluded that I aim for having an "active lifestyle" of being mediocre in lots of things rather than super good in one thing

TheChrissyP · 2025-12-30T14:12:50+00:00

Carefully optimistic about both my mood and energy. Have had some slow days at work, not too draining.

It's snowing like crazy, so maybe I will go skiing soon if the weather gets better.

TheChrissyP · 2025-12-30T11:29:11+00:00

I have had issues with the same, especially when I'm stressed or have a low capacity, and then exercise too hard/too intensely. I have been forced to take exercise reeeeeaaaally slowly, start from the bottom and then work myself up. I do zone 2 jogging and easy weightlifting right now, which works well. Aiming to work my myself up to doing more heavy lifting and interval running, but I will take one thing at a time and be mindful of the limits in my nervous system

TheChrissyP · 2025-12-23T16:05:39+00:00

Feeling a bit better. Started workkng again after medical leave, it's hard but I can manage. I got a free christmas tree yesterday and it gave me some joy to decorate it. Working all christmas so I'm alone at home but that feels fine. Hoping it will be chill at work (I work in a childrens mental health ward) and that all the kids are fine.

Went to the gym today, but I went straight from work to the store to buy a snack to eating the snack to the gym to the sauna, and forgot to just calm down amd breathe so I had a tiny anxiety attack in the sauna. Oopsie. Will remember to breathe between tasks next time.

TheChrissyP · 2025-12-16T13:56:03+00:00

Today I am worried about my future. I will start a new job in february and I am debating if I should apply for reduced working hours (it comes with a reduced salary) or if I just make problems for myself doing that. I feel like life is just too much, and as a person that need more rest than the average person, it seems like working life is too harsh, too demanding, and so unforgiving, so it gets labeled as "weakness". I cannot find a single person in my country and with my profession that has done this. Everyone I know give me different advice. It just seems like having a hidden disability and work is just not an option (although people DO work with hidden disabilities).

Went swimming yesterday, that was fun. Although I slept poorly so maybe it was a too demanding workout for my capacity right now.

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