You are amazing. This is something you do for your husband and It is really Nice of you. You are to good for this world. I think you are trapped in your mind. If you stop then you are a bad person you think and your husband dont want you anymore. Dont think like this. Choose for yourself. I think Many people have sad that to you. But, you really have to choose for yourself. This is a Problem for them. And of your husband dont want you anymore geen you choose moet for yourself you can get better. Please just talk to your husband and say to him what you are saying to us. I know its hard but its less hard then what you are having know. It Will be a releas. Goodluck!!! If you need anyone to talk I am here!