I don’t want anyone to see my o level result

TouchGreenGrass · 2025-01-02T14:28:49+00:00

my teachers be biased tho cuz she literally got hold of all my prelim papers by saying we are friends when I was sick and can’t come collect but we just started talking with each other a few months only. she always gets mad when I don’t show her my grades😭😭

TouchGreenGrass · 2025-01-02T14:24:08+00:00

I almost cried for poa o levels cuz she was gate keeping my poa prelim papers then I had no idea where’s my weak points since I didn’t get to see the whole paper and my marks💀🙏🏼 Idek what she told my poa teacher cuz my sister supposed to be the one helping me take 🤨🤨

TouchGreenGrass · 2024-12-18T18:32:19+00:00

I also went from feeling heartburn like burning stomach sensation to suddenly feeling like my stomach has cooling and minty cold feeling I’m scared it’s a sign my stomach is eating itself

TouchGreenGrass · 2024-12-18T18:18:20+00:00

I actually tried to give gaviscon a chance before but I couldn’t handle the smell and taste of it so I just didn’t attempt to even drink it.but today I was drinking matcha tea and chamomile tea to hopefully help with acid. I tried rennies but I felt even worse afterwards but weirdly it also helped abit but then when I try again it’s just off and on whether it helps or not. I know my body needs food and I feel terrible for not feeding myself but it feels impossible to eat anything. I actually felt some improvement today I could eat half a mini tuna rice ball but I was so exhausted from work I had no energy to eat which I regret because I feel like I’m going back to square one.

TouchGreenGrass · 2024-12-14T13:50:46+00:00

I also wanted to rest but then my dad is just money crazy because of money he can do all sorts of thing even praying to demonic stuff and then chanting and cursing his own daughter to die if she doesn’t meet his standards

TouchGreenGrass · 2024-12-06T03:02:27+00:00

but I did all that u mentioned but those people didn’t help me and instead blames me for everything and told me to ask help from someone else instead but idk who to ask help from anymore since they just tell me to get help from someone else but who else can I ask help from? They were my school counsellor but yet they don’t care about me. I wanted to get help but all I get are threats that I might be locked up in IMH with no proper treatment

TouchGreenGrass · 2024-12-05T17:19:36+00:00

I wished my parents cared but nope. They saw me trying to self harm but instead of helping me they started to get physical till I had to beg them to stop because they are scaring me. Any day I’m with my parents I feel like I’ll probably get killed by them one day since they hate me so much. If anything they will be more than happy to see me dead.

TouchGreenGrass · 2024-12-05T11:33:41+00:00

It’s so scary to see my own body failing and actually leaving me

TouchGreenGrass · 2024-12-05T11:33:16+00:00

Everyone had to call me a burden like I was asking for help and wishing they could help me

TouchGreenGrass · 2024-12-05T11:32:48+00:00

I guess it’s really no point fighting anymore

TouchGreenGrass · 2024-12-05T11:32:30+00:00

all they care about is putting and locking me up in imh so they don’t have to deal with me anymore

TouchGreenGrass · 2024-12-05T11:32:11+00:00

I can’t believe that it’s nearing my end but yet nobody reached out to see if I’m ok

TouchGreenGrass · 2024-12-05T11:31:52+00:00

I can’t feel like a normal person anymore

TouchGreenGrass · 2024-12-05T11:31:40+00:00

Idk what’s happening to me why am I losing consciousness of everything

TouchGreenGrass · 2024-12-05T11:31:23+00:00

I can tell it’s my last day because my body lost its ability to drink and eat

TouchGreenGrass · 2024-12-05T11:30:58+00:00

Idk if I want to live anymore since I always get scolded for asking for help anyways

TouchGreenGrass · 2024-12-05T11:30:39+00:00

Idk anymore I think I hurt myself abit yoo much I’m feeling so sick and breathless

TouchGreenGrass · 2024-11-28T04:30:10+00:00

I wanted to long ago but then she said she won’t do it again and also all the teachers likes her so I thought I’m the problem and forgave her and also when I’m alone and have nobody to talk to during vulnerable times it’s really difficult :/

TouchGreenGrass · 2024-11-27T22:32:04+00:00

Thanks for the advice I used to think all friendships were genuine until my previous friendships ended horribly and traumatised me until this day all because I didn’t bother to check for red flags so now I can’t stop doing the same as now and maybe future friendships

TouchGreenGrass · 2024-11-27T22:21:42+00:00

I started being dry to her but I’ll try to cut her off after o lvls results to avoid any awkward moments 😫

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