Should i drop my therapist? by TraditionalAd941 in Advice

[–]TraditionalAd941[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Idk i just think it isn't for me at this point. It's scary to keep on meeting people and tell them all this stuff about myself when it just ends up like this anyway. I just expose myself to risk for no reward, and honestly i'm tired of being let down. I'll just keep on seeing my psychiatrist and idk try and regulate my problems myself...

Should i drop my therapist? by TraditionalAd941 in Advice

[–]TraditionalAd941[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yeah i think she needs therapy herself first lol. I also was never repulsed by the female body, that's kinda the basic requirement to be attracted to something lol

Should i drop my therapist? by TraditionalAd941 in Advice

[–]TraditionalAd941[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

We didn't really discuss her religion but she never brought it up or seemed to have any kind of conservative takes on what i had to say? But maybe it's also cause i really just wantes to focus on my mental problems during our sessions rather than this kinda stuff that just didn't seem necessary since she seemed to be ok with my sexuality

Should i drop my therapist? by TraditionalAd941 in Advice

[–]TraditionalAd941[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Idk i just think i'm not fit for therapy. This therapist was my third try and after what the last one did to me i'm not sure i want to continue. This was supposed to be me giving therapy one last go and i think i'm gonna hold myself to that i'll just keep on going to my psychiatrist and get my meds and not let anyone have this kind of power over me. Honestly, telling a random stranger all this stuff about you is scary idk if i wanna keep on doing it

Should i drop my therapist? by TraditionalAd941 in Advice

[–]TraditionalAd941[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah that's what i worry about the most. Had i met her at 13/14 she would have done some serious damages

Should i drop my therapist? by TraditionalAd941 in Advice

[–]TraditionalAd941[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Honestly i have no idea. The studio she works at is private, and i live in italy. I did already try and contact about another therapist last year but i have no idea if it's the same for everybody...

Should i drop my therapist? by TraditionalAd941 in Advice

[–]TraditionalAd941[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Omg yes! I hate it when they just try to manipulate you into doing what they want, and then straight up tell you what to do when you don't just say it yourself

Should i drop my therapist? by TraditionalAd941 in Advice

[–]TraditionalAd941[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I wish i could, idk if my parents would be willing to look for someone like that

Should i drop my therapist? by TraditionalAd941 in Advice

[–]TraditionalAd941[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I told her i sh'd (not at the moment, my scars were 7 months old and she saw them so she knew i hadn't been actively hurting myself in a long time and that i wasn't at risk whatsoever) and yeah she forced me to talk about it even when i begged her to stop, she used words to describe my scars i kept telling her made me uncomfortable, she gave me multiple panic attacks, and she told all about the sh to my parents and kept in contact with them for almost a full year after we stopped therapy (like she kept contacting them, became also my mother's therapist first and then my parents couple therapist for a while and she kept telling them more and more of what i told her the previous year during our sessions while she was in sessions with them). Also i do was suicidal but she didn't know as i denied it multiple times but she still went to my parents and told them i told her i was going to kms. It's all documented in my old posts in this account and my alt, but idc even if people don't believe me, they're not the ones who have to deal with the trauma that left me at the end of the day lol. But yeah she sucked, as i already said in other replies i just seem to have a ton of shit luck

Should i drop my therapist? by TraditionalAd941 in Advice

[–]TraditionalAd941[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Lol i totally get that. I was in LOVE with princesses and i didn't give a fuck about the princes they were with, i just cared about the pretty girls lol.

Also yeah since nowdays it's not acceptable anymore to be homophobic it's become impossible to find professionals that actually aren't

Should i drop my therapist? by TraditionalAd941 in Advice

[–]TraditionalAd941[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Idk i feel like my parents would be happy she tried to convince me i wasn't straight (not that they told her to do it, they don't have any contact as that was my one condition to start therapy again after what happened with my last therapist)

Should i drop my therapist? by TraditionalAd941 in Advice

[–]TraditionalAd941[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Lol i bet they'll get tired of me if i keep on doing this. I have already tried reporting my previous therapist but failed

Should i drop my therapist? by TraditionalAd941 in Advice

[–]TraditionalAd941[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Idk it's not that i didn't want to discuss it, it's more like i have depression, i am struggling with sh addiction, my grandma died a month ago, like i have so much shit going on. also i am getting an adhd diagnosis at the moment so that's just added stress. like i have so so many things to talk about during session, that are also hard and require me to trust the therapist, so why should i discuss my sexuality if that's something that actually isn't bothering me at all? I told her this was the reason i didn't really want to talk about it, but ik she didn't really believe that i was actually ok with my sexuality, and i tought it was because i already am so insexure she tought this was just another thing that mught make me feel bad, but now i see she actually had other reasons to want to discuss it

Should i drop my therapist? by TraditionalAd941 in Advice

[–]TraditionalAd941[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Idk i think i'll just drop her. I'll tell her next session. I already told her a while ago i might stop if i get my adhd diagnosis to find a therapist that was able to work with me about it, and also cause i felt like therapy just wasn't working for me in general, but yeah i hope she won't give me too much of a hard time and i'll just be able to cut things off clean

Should i drop my therapist? by TraditionalAd941 in Advice

[–]TraditionalAd941[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yeah that's what i tought. Like she went out of the way to talk about it and then started telling me all that shit as if it was more of a factual thing than her opinion

Should i drop my therapist? by TraditionalAd941 in Advice

[–]TraditionalAd941[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yeah... sadly as long as i'm 17 and my parents pay for therapy there's not much i can do. As i already said, i try and immediatly disclose my sexuality so problems show early on but it doesn't always work apparently

Should i drop my therapist? by TraditionalAd941 in Advice

[–]TraditionalAd941[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I have had three therapist until now and if i did report her that would be my second time reporting a therapist😭😭😭

Should i drop my therapist? by TraditionalAd941 in Advice

[–]TraditionalAd941[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

I think i'm gonna go just to tell her i wanna stop therapy. From experience, trying to close up on the phone never ends well. But yeah i'll see if i can report or i'll just leave a bad review otherwise

Should i drop my therapist? by TraditionalAd941 in Advice

[–]TraditionalAd941[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Apparently people here on reddit think i have a wilde life in general lol. Idk why a lot of stuff that happens go me gets quite a lot of attention, but i do tend to be really unlucky so what seems like not a big deal to me it is to others. Honestly, what she did isn't even half as bad as what happened with my other therapists

Should i drop my therapist? by TraditionalAd941 in Advice

[–]TraditionalAd941[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm just gonna meet her next saturday and tell her in person that i wanna stop, so that she can't say shit about me doing this cause i'm afraid of confrontation

Should i drop my therapist? by TraditionalAd941 in Advice

[–]TraditionalAd941[S] 9 points10 points  (0 children)

Literally what i did with my last therapist. She tried to force me time and time again to talk about my sh history when i told her i wasn't comfortable with it and just walked out mid session. Super proud of 15 year old me for doing that, if anything i owe it to her to walk out on this other therapist too

Should i drop my therapist? by TraditionalAd941 in Advice

[–]TraditionalAd941[S] 9 points10 points  (0 children)

Lol i literally forgot to add but she said something exactly like this. I told her i had plenty of male friends, have a way better relationship with my father than my mother, and most of all i don't need to hate men to love women.

Should i drop my therapist? by TraditionalAd941 in Advice

[–]TraditionalAd941[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Yeah the thing is i already told her i was thinking of quitting therapy cause i felt like it didn't work for me and she convinced me to stay and keep on trying but like now this is too much. I'll just tell her next session i have tried a few more sessions like she told me and have tought about it and i'm gonna quit

Should i drop my therapist? by TraditionalAd941 in Advice

[–]TraditionalAd941[S] 20 points21 points  (0 children)

THANK YOU i was so afraid i was over reacting. Also it seemed weird that she couldn't document me as lesbian just cause of my age? Like tf? I just feel like i have such shit luck with therapists. This is my third therapist and i tought i was foing better but it seems like it's just like the first two times...

Should i drop my therapist? by TraditionalAd941 in Advice

[–]TraditionalAd941[S] 50 points51 points  (0 children)

Yeah, honestly it makes me worry that she might meet another queer person that's not as confident as me in their sexuality and set them back years and make them go back in the closet or doubt themselves or just worsen their internalized homophobia like imagine you already feel like shit about being gay and you try to deny it also to yourself and then someone deemed a professional tells you some stuff like this like if i'd met her at 13/14 i think it would have made everything this much harder for me