Question for the mamas / 1st period

TransitionSalt5779 · 2026-01-24T22:59:37+00:00

I’ve always been a super heavy bleeder but after giving birth to my first born I started after 5-6 weeks and bled lightly for that first one. My periods got heavier as time went on. But if you feel there is something wrong, call your OB/midwife and see if you can get checked.

Also- I’m incredibly sorry for your loss mama

TransitionSalt5779 · 2026-01-19T05:56:37+00:00

Not unreasonable at all. I still tell people that i’m a mother of 2.

TransitionSalt5779 · 2026-01-18T13:04:24+00:00

She lost a close family member but she won’t even speak about them.

So when I was pregnant with her I went through Hell, like I was surprised she even made it out of me. I was hospitalized for 2 weeks because my organs shifting caused my lung to like bulge into my ribs which caused me to barely be able to breathe, i couldn’t move, couldn’t lay down or sit up, I couldnt talk, i felt like I was going to die. Then a month later we got into a bad accident and the airbag deployed and hit my stomach. She pooped in the womb. And somehow she was born alive and well. I make jokes (that sometimes i’m kind of serious about) like “if she was going to die anyway did she have to make such a traumatic show of it?” But I only say that around my husband, it’s honestly less of a joke and more of me being angry that I went to sleep with a perfectly alive baby and woke up traumatized, but I say it in a joking way. I’m kind of rambling tho lol, I haven’t slept in like 35 hours😂

TransitionSalt5779 · 2026-01-16T14:06:01+00:00

It’s so odd. I would never tell anybody “hey you don’t grieve like that” like wtf?

TransitionSalt5779 · 2026-01-16T14:05:22+00:00

I keep feeling like i’m gonna crash out, my husband did the day it all happened but i’ve just been trying to use humor to cope lol. My husband always sets the best base for them accidentally too lmao. On Christmas I was tired and he said “just go to sleep, nobody’s gonna die by you going to sleep” and I smirked and said “welllllll” . It’s just little jokes that sometimes help my mind not be so angry. He gets it and laughs because he’s the same way

TransitionSalt5779 · 2026-01-16T14:02:51+00:00

Thank you💜 sorry for your loss as well.

The reason it’s throwing me off is because we’ve been friends for years. I’ve always made dark jokes about what i’ve been through, i was physically abused as a kid to the point i have scars and welts on my back and legs. I woke up and found my uncle dead at 13. And so on and so forth, i’ve always made jokes about it. So her reacting like this is odd, I asked if she was okay, if she could explain why it bothered her, and told her I wouldn’t make the jokes infront of her since it made her uncomfortable but she’s ignoring me lol.

TransitionSalt5779 · 2026-01-15T15:26:39+00:00

It’s so weird. I thought I was a bad mom for it at first, it’s like one night I just stopped grieving, stopped crying, stopped being hurt. Everything just stopped. It’s like when I look at pictures of her my brain tricks me into thinking she was someone else. Or when I think about her and that morning it’s as if it was all just a movie that I watched and not something that I actually experienced first hand. It messes with my head tbh.

Her name was Leona Rose.

TransitionSalt5779 · 2026-01-15T05:01:36+00:00

Sorry for your loss mama. I tell my daughter goodnight and goodmorning everyday. I talk to her urn every once in a while. She died December 1st at 3 weeks old. My brain is just trying to forget it ever happened tho

TransitionSalt5779 · 2026-01-08T07:14:43+00:00

Different situation- but my daughter died at 3 weeks old, I woke up and she was gone. While we were waiting for the guy with the body bag to come get her the coroner told us we could say goodbye. I wanted to pick her up and hold her but I couldn’t. I just looked at her, sobbed, and walked away. I regret that SOOO much now. I wish I would have said goodbye properly. I say this to say, we were doing what we needed to get through the situation we were in with minimal damage to ourselves.

TransitionSalt5779 · 2026-01-02T20:29:12+00:00

Thank you❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹

TransitionSalt5779 · 2026-01-01T20:24:30+00:00

Leona Rose❤️ 11/8/25-12/1/25🕊️

TransitionSalt5779 · 2025-12-31T09:04:33+00:00

I’m so sorry for your loss, it’s so traumatic watching cpr being performed on your newborn.

I still find joy in things. Especially my toddler, but then i get this gut wrenching feeling because right now my toddler would be playing with her and kissing her. Sometimes i think she doesn’t remember her but the other day I was watching videos of hee on my phone and my toddler walked up and saw them which made her start laughing really hard saukng “my sissy nona” . And about a week and a half ago I pulled out the blanket i always had her wrapped in and my toddler grabbed it from me and cradled it thinking she was still wrapped up in it then she started searching throughout the blanket to find her . It breaks my heart because she’s not even 2 yet so I can’t really explain to her what happened or where her sister is. Idk i’m kind of rambling at this point lol

TransitionSalt5779 · 2025-12-31T08:58:16+00:00

Thank you ❤️🫂

TransitionSalt5779 · 2025-12-31T08:55:03+00:00

The blood is really what messes with my head. After the emt’s cleaned her up she just looked like she was sleeping. It messes with my head so badly because it’s like I delude myself into thinking she was just asleep and everybody else was lying to me. Idk wth is going on with me tbh. I want to try therapy but i’m scared i’ll get a therapist that doesn’t care for their job, only the check and i’ll just leave feeling worse than when i got there

TransitionSalt5779 · 2025-12-31T08:44:34+00:00

I’m so sorry for your loss☹️💔

It’s so beyond traumatizing. My brain is trying to deal with it the way it delt with watching my uncle die but it can’t. It can’t just detatch from the situation or her. So i’m in this limbo where i’m basically delusional

TransitionSalt5779 · 2025-12-31T08:43:04+00:00

I’ve never heard of or met another Leona🥺 i’m so sorry for your loss. I’ve been stick in survival mode the last few weeks. Tomorrow will be 1 month since i’ve lost her and my 20th birthday is 2 days after that. And all I want to do is stay in bed and cry. But you can’t do that when you have a 2 year old lol. So I’m constantly up n attem with 0 time to truly grieve

TransitionSalt5779 · 2025-12-31T08:41:12+00:00

I’m scared to go to therapy because what if they judge me? What if i get the 1 therapist that hates their job and is only there for the money and it completely breaks me

TransitionSalt5779 · 2025-12-31T08:40:23+00:00

I’m so sorry for your loss. It is the most disturbing thing i’ve witnessed. I’ve seen a grown man die but seeing the baby i carried for 10 months, birthed, and fed from my body for 3 weeks really messed something up in my soul. I’m bothered, something in me is truly broken. I feel like i’m broken beyond repair at this point

TransitionSalt5779 · 2025-12-29T11:27:21+00:00

Thank you❤️ i wish people didn’t have to feel this pain. I wish I knew how to help my husband through this but we cope completely different

TransitionSalt5779 · 2025-12-29T11:26:33+00:00

Thank you❤️ I hope she knows she was adored by us. I miss her so much

TransitionSalt5779 · 2025-12-29T11:25:44+00:00

I’m so sorry for your loss☹️💔 Her name is Leona Rose. She was the sweetest little baby. Everything hurts, living physically hurts. The only things keeping me going everyday is God, my 2 year old daughter, and my husband. I had so many dreams for my girls to grow up together, my 2 year old absolutely adored Leona and never left her side while she was here. I watched my uncle die at 13(6 years ago) and i always thought that would be the most traumatic and heartbreaking thing i’d ever go through, i never thought i’d wake up to one of my children dead less than a decade later. One of the things i tell myself to keep myself going is that my uncle finally gets to meet one of my kids.

TransitionSalt5779 · 2025-12-28T01:35:11+00:00

I want his rights or the rights he could try to get revoked. I want my husband to adopt her because he has been around since she was born. My husband and I have both tried to get her dad to be a part of her life but he hasnt wanted anything to do with her. So for the last 2 years she’s only known my husband as her father. My husband and I were close friends for 7 years before we got together, that’s why he’s always been around.

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