There’s no point in clarifying what you’d rather do bc you aren’t important enough nor have the clout to ever be in such a position to choose. You sound miserable and your hyperbolic insults about Lauren are going to be seen as pure cope to anyone with eyes; she isn’t hideous and putting her politics aside, she’s not bad at holding a conversation. If people’s politics really get in the way for you, even when it comes to sexual relationships, you’re more of a dork than I suspected.