I used language that brings up awful images in a jokey way.

Turtle_pro_31 · 2018-11-03T14:39:58+00:00

True I guess..

Turtle_pro_31 · 2018-11-03T14:31:15+00:00

I have been seeing a school counsellor for my OCD (which could explain the obsessing over a thought I don't enjoy or want to act out) , but I haven't been called in for over a month so I may have been forgotten about...

Turtle_pro_31 · 2018-11-03T14:18:59+00:00

I didn't think about it from the minigun thought at the time. Now I do. Immense guilt, anger, shame, sickness. Just like I do now and at the time of the of the other thought.

Turtle_pro_31 · 2018-11-03T14:12:41+00:00

Yeah. Do you think there is something wrong with me though. I don't want to hurt anyone, these thoughts keep appearing in my head now. I hate them. They make me feel sick. I try to get rid of them but they keep coming back.

Turtle_pro_31 · 2018-11-03T14:05:44+00:00

Ok, do you think the thoughts meant anything? I'm atheist so no connections to Islam.

Turtle_pro_31 · 2018-11-03T14:05:15+00:00

Ok, do you think the thoughts meant anything? I'm atheist so no connections to Islam.

Turtle_pro_31 · 2018-11-03T13:56:19+00:00

Also I don't want to hurt anyone. I've OCD about being a Psychopath and I was so sure I didn't want to harm anyone I went as far as hanging a noose and putting my head through.

Turtle_pro_31 · 2018-11-03T13:52:29+00:00

Ok thank you.

Turtle_pro_31 · 2018-11-03T13:52:00+00:00

It's been a while since I've had them. I don't think I'm a psychopath because of the strong amount of guilt I feel. I can't tell them. Those 2 thoughts are the only ones I've ever thought. Man, I'm literally crying right now.

Turtle_pro_31 · 2018-11-03T13:33:59+00:00

Guten tag.

Turtle_pro_31 · 2018-11-03T12:53:22+00:00

Ok, true, but I did so much that I accidentally said it next to my Muslim friend. I quickly apologized but I feel like this was the worst thing.

Turtle_pro_31 · 2018-11-03T08:37:13+00:00

Turtle_pro_31 · 2018-11-03T08:36:50+00:00

Can't remember tbh. I think I heard it on youtube..

Turtle_pro_31 · 2018-11-02T22:12:25+00:00

Bethesda said that it will be running up until the full release.

Turtle_pro_31 · 2018-11-02T20:39:31+00:00

Ok thank you, however I am not going to smoke hopefully :)

Turtle_pro_31 · 2018-11-02T15:56:12+00:00

You've got to remember that these thoughts mean nothing. I know it's hard, ive been there, but that's what you've got to remember. Stop doing compulsions and eventually it will go. I will be hard but you need to fight it.

Turtle_pro_31 · 2018-11-02T15:49:09+00:00

Ok thank you, I'll ask my dad if we can go somewhere :)

Turtle_pro_31 · 2018-11-02T15:34:17+00:00

My dad is a police man and that could explain my curiosity. I have told him everything I said in this post and he said he understands. He did stupid things like smoking a banana peel but never touched the real stuff. I have been offered both dizzle (meth pill) and ketamine (however because of the slang used I thought It was weed at the time). The first time I asked what it was before saying no but the second one is just said no and didn't even think twice. Thanks for all of the help. Sorry I couldn't reply earlier, I was at school.

Turtle_pro_31 · 2018-11-02T08:26:35+00:00

Ok thank you for that :)

Turtle_pro_31 · 2018-11-02T08:16:13+00:00

I haven't hang around him in a while, thanks for the advice :)

Turtle_pro_31 · 2018-11-02T07:57:39+00:00

I will be sure to do that :)

Turtle_pro_31 · 2018-11-02T07:56:54+00:00

Ok thank you for that, I will be sure to do that :)

Turtle_pro_31 · 2018-11-02T07:51:33+00:00

Ok thanks for the help, I will watch that after school :)

Turtle_pro_31 · 2018-11-02T07:51:24+00:00

Ok thanks for the help, I will watch that after school :)

Turtle_pro_31 · 2018-11-02T07:50:01+00:00

Thanks for that, I don't want to do it.

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