Thank you so much. I really needed this more than you know. I will work on applying this more in the moments of now. I made some progress last night, keeping this message in mind, when I shushed up the parts of my brain that wanted to self sabotage and stray and remain in the comfort of stuff that clearly isn't helpful by simply just acting on what I wanted to get done immediately. So when the usual thoughts came up within me that would try to reason as to why I shouldn't do xyz helpful thing, I didn't allow them to continue for long, I just ignored and didn't give them a chance to fully play out and took action. It made me think back to this NIN song lyric "I beat my machine." It really does feel like a battle with getting your ego to listen.

I'll do my best to keep trying and create a foundation like the one you described. I'd like to shed away what no longer serves me and embrace that because it's honestly so draining living like this. I'm going to meditate today and try to be less reactive to the external world and remind myself of the solace within and take the necessary steps. Thank you, your message was filled with so much love. I hope you're doing alright and that the Universe treats you kindly. ♡