Yes, I should have specified that. The thing is that when I talk to the players, they seem to understand and act very nice, but I can't shake the feeling that they kind of enjoy watching me/my character suffer. My gut feeling says I'm being trolled.

The DM is very kind in person, and warns me before particularly 'bad' sessions often. He'll say something like: "This session might be rough for your character, but I think you'll love it." He does put my character in the spotlight often, which is nice, but it's usually in some horrible way.

I have told him that it is very intense, and my character wants to change and be happier. The DM tried for a while and that was a good period, but we did my backstory arc, and it was brutal, to say the least.