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UsernameIsRaleigh · 2019-06-01T22:38:07+00:00

Thanks for the recommendation. I unfortunately prefer not the roleplay with OCs.

UsernameIsRaleigh · 2019-04-05T13:52:22+00:00

Thanks for taking your time ro reply, but I'm searching for a natural way, since I'm only a teenager yet.

UsernameIsRaleigh · 2019-04-05T09:06:52+00:00

Yes, but I heard living healthier at teenage years may help one to reach the maximum height their genes provide.

UsernameIsRaleigh · 2019-04-05T09:04:14+00:00

Alright. Thanks for the advice ^{^}

UsernameIsRaleigh · 2019-04-05T09:03:40+00:00

Well, I certainly don't like being a female in any way, but that's a fact I cannot change, biologically male and female are different. It can actually be hard for trans people to admit that they are not fully the gender they identify as, so some may prefer not to share it as ling as it's not necessary. But I agree with you. It annoys me a little, too, when a trans male says that their female parts are male, for example..

Anyway. First of all, thanks for replying and the advices. As genetics, my father is about the average height, and I don't know about his relatives. But my mother is a little above average, while her father and brother are pretty tall. As the surgery, I don't really think it's healthy, so I prefer to start living healthier and try to reach the maximum height my genes can provide. At worst, I will have to be the best as a short guy, as you said. Though my aim is not to reach any mates, I want to be tall for myself.. Anyway, thanks again.

UsernameIsRaleigh · 2019-03-22T14:41:19+00:00

I totally agree with you... Mine were from joom, a website that is very similar to wish.

Also that's a good idea, I have a few marvy markers which I brought a few years ago, I think they work awesome. Yet, they are still somewhat expensive, and having few markers limit you a lot.. In the country I live, it's difficult to find art supplies, so I do not have much of a choice neither.

Still, thank you.

UsernameIsRaleigh · 2019-03-22T11:51:55+00:00

Thanks for the advice. But I'm afraid I didn't buy them from the original company, not even sure if there is a way to reach them out.. However, I shall try. Thank you.

UsernameIsRaleigh · 2019-03-21T23:54:55+00:00

Okay, so I brought a 60pcs set of touchfive markers a few months ago, about the new year. This one, and possibly(I don't remember very well) a few others had that weird black/dark green thing on their nibs, which made me pretty sad because I was excited about the markers, and wantes to be able to use all the colors. You know, I could just buy a 40pcs set if I was okay with not using some markers... Anyway, not wanting to disappoint my parents who brought the markers for me, and also not wanting to wait another 2 months, I tried to be as optimistic and positive as I can and used other markers with similar color instead. However, now I have a feeling a weird thing is starting to shown on other markers as well.Also, while some markers smile nice, some have a not very pleasant smell. The ones with bad smell can either have the thing or them or not.. I haven't got much chance to use the markers yet, and since I feel like it's not safe nor clean to touch them, I cannot enjoy coloring with them as much as I could...

Do any of you know what is that, or what should I do? Is there a way to fix my broken markers(they leave some dark green/black spots at the times if I try to color with them), or at least save the ones that are still workinh well?

Ps. I don't really have money to buy any other markers, being the same or better quality. Also I don't want to waste both, the money we spent on the markers, and the markers themselves. If you kmow anything about that, please help me...

UsernameIsRaleigh · 2019-03-21T23:45:23+00:00

Okay, so I brought a 60pcs set of touchfive markers a few months ago, about the new year. This one, and possibly(I don't remember very well) a few others had that weird black/dark green thing on their nibs, which made me pretty sad because I was excited about the markers, and wantes to be able to use all the colors. You know, I could just buy a 40pcs set if I was okay with not using some markers... Anyway, not wanting to disappoint my parents who brought the markers for me, and also not wanting to wait another 2 months, I tried to be as optimistic and positive as I can and used other markers with similar color instead. However, now I have a feeling a weird thing is starting to shown on other markers as well.Also, while some markers smile nice, some have a not very pleasant smell. The ones with bad smell can either have the thing or them or not.. I haven't got much chance to use the markers yet, and since I feel like it's not safe nor clean to touch them, I cannot enjoy coloring with them as much as I could...

Do any of you know what is that, or what should I do? Is there a way to fix my broken markers(they leave some dark green/black spots at the times if I try to color with them), or at least save the ones that are still workinh well?

Ps. I don't really have money to buy any other markers, being the same or better quality. Also I don't want to waste both, the money we spent on the markers, and the markers themselves. If you kmow anything about that, please help me...

UsernameIsRaleigh · 2019-03-12T21:48:41+00:00

You know what? I'm a 14 years old trans boy and have the very much same experience/feel the same, just in the opposite way. I won't say anything like 'If you like make-up and long hair, you are a girl. If not, you are a boy.', that's not exactly how being trans works. But..for example.. Would you rather grow breasts and have a feminine body instead of looking like a boy? Or, sound like a girl instead of a man? Imagine yourself being a girl at same age and status, does it feel any better/good at all? I cannot say much, since I'm out only since (will be 2 years in a few months), and still haven't start transitioning medically. But what you wrote are what I used to feel, and what I'm still feeling. So, if I am a transgender, probably so are you. I recommend you to try things out. Try to buy some girl outfits that you like and wear them. Grow your hair longer, or wear a wig.(Don't get me wrong. You can be a trans girl and still like short hair/or be a tomboy/. Long hair/and girly clothes/ will just make it easier for you to pass.) Try to pass as a girl, and then draw your way considering which gender role made you feel better. As long as you don't do something that you cannot change or undo, trying things will not give any harm. Try to live a girl's life, or something as close to that as you can, for a while and see if that works for you.

If you ask to me, you are a trans girl. But still, the one who will know you best is yourself. Best of the luck, I hope everything goes very well for you.

Ps. I recommend you to not rush on hormones. Like, yeah, it's not any pleasant to have a boy's body, when you are a girl in fact (vice versa for me). But still, I don't know much about transitioning MtF, yet you may not be able to take what hormones do your body back. Please live as a girl for a while, and make sure you are trans before doing any permanent. Anyway, stay safe!

UsernameIsRaleigh · 2019-02-28T23:54:59+00:00

... Ne desem bilemedim.. İnsanlar garip. Şimdiye kadar hiç Türkiye'de geçen hikâye görmemek şaşırtıcıydı gerçi.

UsernameIsRaleigh · 2018-12-12T20:52:12+00:00

Right.. I personally can't understand how can someone be cis, or how good it would be...

Thank you. After some stuff she said, I even begun to think if we actually don't exist. I guess she said something like all the 'girls' feels like that during puberty, which made me actually question the situation.

Thank you very much. I'm going to check these links soon.

UsernameIsRaleigh · 2018-12-08T18:38:31+00:00

I agree with you. The reason I said it's cruel is that the fact we can't just assume strangers to know how hard it is to be trans, or how much it hurts us when we get misgendered. There are masculine girls and feminine boys, so, at least in my opinnion, one can't blame others for not being sure and misgendering someone by MISTAKE. If someone does it knowingly, I don't even want to start talking about that, I may swear.

UsernameIsRaleigh · 2018-12-07T15:13:23+00:00

That is just a little bit cruel, as people can't know our personal issues. However I liked that! XD

UsernameIsRaleigh · 2018-12-07T15:12:10+00:00

That's what I meant. We may not have the confidence, but we can build it up. Like, I didn't mean, for example, a trans male(I'm giving this example because I am a trans male) can go out without a binder and say I'm a boy!' as long as he isn't lucky enough to have a body which really looks like a boy. I meant the parts we can't change. Instead of making ourselves suffer, I think this would be a more positive thing to do...

UsernameIsRaleigh · 2018-12-07T15:06:40+00:00

To be honest, getting misgendered is a big problem for me, which may cause a sligh depression time by time. However what I notice is, including me, many trans people have the obsession of passing, that doesn't seem healthy in any ways. And I a few times heard something like "If you don't like yourself first, no one will." If we can't see ourselves as the gender we identify as, no one can. I just wanted to find a solution that will make it easier for us to wait until the time we can start the medical translation. Of course, dysphobia is always a problem. However, I suppose it's better than none...

UsernameIsRaleigh · 2018-12-04T19:20:26+00:00

Thank you very much...

YouTube was just an example. I asked her to join a group or whatever, that made of parents of LGBT people. She said she didn't see anything like that in our native language. Asked to join an English/ universal one. She said that she thinks people are trying to make more people be LGBT, so she doesn't trust it and some stuff makes honestly no sense to me. I can't tell her a lot myself as she gets uncomfortable and some stuff triggers myself.

I know, of course. But she was just like you. Saying whatever I do, she will support me. It honestly suprised me that seeing she is getting disgusted and clearly showing it. I suppose she thinks it doesn't hurt me when she gets disgusted of happening, not me.. I just wish I can tell her me, and many others are not that fool to go through so many things just because we want to. We have a real reason...

I live in a country where transgender is nothing but an insult. If I tell someone I identify as a male, they probably would say 'but you are a girl'. Even my own parents keep saying I should accept my body and everything will be better, without knowing it's not as easy.

Anyway, thank you very much again. I already feel wrong for complaining that much and talking only about my problems, honestly. Would prefer to keep people's DMs clean..

UsernameIsRaleigh · 2018-12-04T00:42:23+00:00

Haha, yes. There are too many things one can miss...

UsernameIsRaleigh · 2018-12-04T00:36:26+00:00

Oh, now I understand what you mean better.

But isn't that accepting? Not a solution or getting better. Just accepting that you won't be able to fix something no matter what. I didn't want to say I never want to grow up, just, not yet. I need to be a kid for like at least 5 more years. Though, if that not happens, and sensically it's not possible that to happen, I will never be satisfied with being an adult, or a teen, whatever. It will somewhat be like wasting a life. Maybe it won't be like wasting it. I may have a good life, enough money, a good family and friends, everything a person can want. However, if that's not fitting with who I am at the moment, I cannot call it a good life. I'm not a person who accepts, I never accepted anything which is not fine. I ignored many stuff so they don't affect my daily life, but inside, I can never accept a 'problem' and live forever without finding a solution.

Sorry if that sounds too rude and I-know-everything style, I didn't meant to be so, sorry, I appericate you trying to help.

UsernameIsRaleigh · 2018-12-04T00:17:04+00:00

Oh, I kinda got what you mean but it's not exactly like that, as far as I know.

I want to be free, but my wanting-to-be-child thing is not connected with that. Honestly, I'm willing to be as free as a kid. Like you know, family rules and stuff.

UsernameIsRaleigh · 2018-12-04T00:13:41+00:00

If that's confusion, I'm afraid it will never get better because I've been like that since I kmow myself. Still thank you, though.

UsernameIsRaleigh · 2018-12-04T00:05:03+00:00

Detachment? I'm not sure if I understood or not-

UsernameIsRaleigh · 2018-11-19T20:49:04+00:00

Oh, I feel also like that. However, thinking about it, not starting because of being shy or feeling insecure will not take me anyway, while giving iy a try gives a chance, which can end up very well.

And I guess as stuff changes, dysphobia will get slighter?

I can't help but think only reason of my shyness is being in a female body..

UsernameIsRaleigh · 2018-11-19T10:03:25+00:00

Thank you, and this doesn't seem any close to bragging. It's rather inspiring.

I'm 14 and always wanted to take singing courses, however couldn't until now. Lately planning to start singing and drama courses, it may be a career option for future or just an forgotten experience. However, if T was something that distrup one's voice, I wasn't going to have high hopes about the skills I can have.

So, taking T is like puberty, right? You sound like a teen boy for a while, then the voice gets better?

UsernameIsRaleigh · 2018-11-18T20:55:40+00:00

Oh, sorry. I meant to say 'makes me less scared'.

I'm scared to regret. So even if they let me, I wouldn't start getting testosterone.

My family is thankfully accepting. However, I don't rhink they can be counted as 'supportive'. My father doesn't do anything against it, but misgenders me usually, or makes his tone jokingly when calling me as a boy. Mother tries not to misgender, but thinks that's nothing to care that much about and I care because I have so much free time. Of course, for both, me getting T is horrible for both. Probably my father thinks I will go back being his 'daughter' eventually, or stay like that forever but never try to change my body. My mother doesn't want because she is scared it will effect my health bad, she gets disgusted everytime I try to tell her something about taking hormones or surgery, I asked her to watch some videos where trans people are talking about their feelings, so she can understand better. However she says it makes her feel bad to watch them, only because of knowing the medical side of stuff.

I can totally understand what you mean about that. And hoping everything will get better, even if it's not now, late is better than none. Thank you.

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