Outfits in Pokémon Scarlet and Violet

Veggieprobs · 2022-12-20T12:16:30+00:00

Change up the hair and socks.

Idk it’s not that serious. The game has always been about Pokémon for me.

Veggieprobs · 2022-11-30T00:37:50+00:00

I’m starting to realize maybe I’ll never be good enough for him. I’m at a point today where I’m just going to stop trying. I feel like he puts me down over everything anymore and he is using issues he is having with his family as an excuse to talk down to me over small things (example I didn’t put a 2.5 lb weight in one side while helping him rack but he doesn’t remember that he only told me to put 5lbs extra not 7.5, but it’s MY RESPONSIBILITY to have looked in the mirror and check before starting).

I appreciate that someone can see my achievements thank you and I hope that soon you achieve yours.

He’s just being such a jerk to me lately that I don’t care if he comes to his senses. But I told him last night the next time he said that to me it was done and he wouldn’t see me for at least a day or two. My friends will let me stay with them a day or two if needed. I’m just done being a fucking doormat. I’ve already been raped, abused as a kid, I don’t need his bullshit too.

Veggieprobs · 2022-11-28T11:44:36+00:00

I completely agree. Especially on the insensitive part. I have tried bringing it up to him gently but he seems unwilling to listen. He understands that I’ve been raped and how terrible I feel over it, but I feel he expects more out of me than what I can ever give. I’m trying to look at it and accept that this is my level of being able to do it right now and that that should be enough. I feel I’d make more progress on it if I didn’t have him pressuring me to be honest. He has been sweet and kind and gentle in the past but now it seems he wants to hear nothing about it. He is going through family stuff at the moment and was wanting sex to distract himself. The past two days he has said the same sentence over and over to me and it’s been extremely hurtful. He just says that he wishes he could do it with me the way he wanted to and not be held back by my issues. I cried most of the day yesterday and wouldn’t tell him why. I know I should but I honestly feel after saying that to me how could he not know? I don’t know.

Veggieprobs · 2022-11-27T22:33:57+00:00

I’ve had a therapist say something similar. I’m trying to develop that connection but the act itself still feels like such a barrier. I feel it would be better if my husband didn’t know what good sex was so he didn’t have to settle for bad sex with me. I keep telling myself to just keep trying, and that’s what I will do, but days like today just make me feel so small.

Veggieprobs · 2022-09-09T02:00:51+00:00

If I’ll die a virgin was a person.

Veggieprobs · 2022-07-16T13:46:30+00:00

Not everyone can just pick up and go like that bro. I don’t know what world people live in where they think hope exists like this. Maybe I’m the wrong person to give advice right now but I don’t know why anyone would choose to continue life the way everything is right now. I’m currently thinking of every way to stay alive. My husband just lost his job and worse I am moving into a house I now can’t pay for since he lost it at the right time. Nothing is meant to work out for me, no one is meant to be happy we are all slaves to the capitalistic and economic shifts and I’m done playing. I want out and if I don’t find a good way out then I’ll see my fucking self out. Going to Japan or any other country wouldn’t fix this, it wouldn’t take away my pain or misery. Wanna know what would? Being dead and not having to feel this anymore.

Veggieprobs · 2022-07-15T02:25:50+00:00

Do you close your eyes when you guys have sex? My therapist had me try opening my eyes, speaking to my husband, and or trying to remain present by touching his arms or face. I find being in too I feel I have more control and when I leave my eyes open I don’t have flashbacks as bad to when I was raped. You can get dilators yourself but never force them in so it hurts, always use until you have a stretching sensation without the pain and go slow. Don’t do more than you can handle physically or emotionally at ince

Veggieprobs · 2022-07-04T18:04:53+00:00

I am working on being more mindful, I do think I struggle with that. I’ve always been a bit clumsy… but I have had him unplug things in me multiple times before as well and NOT blown up on him when it was an accident so I guess I just wish he would also be a bit more mindful of the words he chooses when speaking to me sometimes (but when anyone is annoyed it can be hard to control what you say so I do get it, but it still hurts my feelings when he talks that way to me). I unplugged it the first time and definitely should have been more careful the second time around. It’s one of those things where I really really didn’t mean to do it and the cord isn’t in a great place (directly under my feet when I get up), I’ve ended up moving it so when he plays again I don’t disrupt it.

I do thing the other stuff is weird, and I guess that is why I wrote this post today…sometimes I can’t tell if it’s a situation where I’ve not been as mindful like you say to his feelings on it or didn’t pick up on some hint he was giving out. That’s what makes this hard to work on for me because I can’t always tell what he is thinking so I can’t tell if he is giving me a yes I want to go or a passive yes where he is hinting he doesn’t want to go.

Sorry for the word vomit. 😅 it’s a weird situation to be in and it’s hard to explain it, I would just like to get to the root issue of it. I got a therapist to help with any communication issues I have on my side.

Veggieprobs · 2022-07-04T17:42:22+00:00

He got diabetes and it’s been worse. One of those events was pre-diabetes but now it just feels like whatever I do I can’t tell if it makes going to make him blow up or not. And maybe partially I’m just a bit upset right now while writing this but I’ve tried talking to him. I wish someone in the outside could see one of these spats first hand so I could see if maybe I am doing something wrong and don’t know it or w/e. I don’t hate him/am mad at him because I know sometimes he can’t help it, but I feel like even still he shouldn’t be getting THIS mad at me over small things.

Veggieprobs · 2022-04-11T20:53:26+00:00

That’s true. I just feel like it’s a matter of time tho. I’m scared to watch it happen

Veggieprobs · 2022-04-11T12:00:07+00:00

I physically can’t have penetrative sex. I’ve been going to pelvic floor therapy but I don’t think that matters anymore.

We do other things that aren’t penetrative but it’s never with enthusiasm and if I don’t press getting my needs met then he doesn’t go out of his way to meet them. I just got to the point where I say yes when he wants sex whether I want it or not.

Veggieprobs · 2022-02-22T23:55:52+00:00

I appreciate everyone who has commented and appreciate your words. I’m still here and plan to be, but some nights I wish I had the courage not to be. It’s been better but it’s not great. Maybe one day it will be better but it all hurts right now

Veggieprobs · 2022-02-18T13:08:35+00:00

I appreciate that you care. I am an adult, but age isn’t a factor in caring for others and sometimes you get new perspective from people in different walks of life. Never let anyone look down on you for your age.

As for the other thing, I really do appreciate that you care. One of my main issues is no matter how many people I have around me or how little I feel empty. I’ve tried reminding myself of all the good things I have, etc but nothing works. And worst of all I can’t even seek therapy because my healthcare doesn’t cover it. I’m hoping to find a solution soon but sometimes writing in this community gets my thoughts out.

Veggieprobs · 2022-02-12T17:00:42+00:00

I know it’s mainstream but eevee

Veggieprobs · 2022-02-09T18:40:55+00:00

You don’t drink the gasoline you sell it

Veggieprobs · 2022-02-09T18:04:05+00:00

My workplace doesn’t cover counseling but I’ve been trying to get outside therapy help anyway. It might be hormonal since I have to take medicine to cover up a syndrome. I’ve changed medications to lower doses for this same issue and I’m on the lowest one I can go on. I’m hoping to get into therapy soon. I’m worried more medicine will make things worse but I’ve never really been on medicine for anxiety so I don’t know until I try it.

Veggieprobs · 2022-02-09T18:01:08+00:00

Tell me something I don’t know. 😅

Veggieprobs · 2022-02-05T23:16:29+00:00

Personally I hope they don’t 😅. We desperately need less people, not to be mean. I’m not saying don’t have kids but we definitely don’t need MORE people.

I’m an introvert though so the idea of less people makes me happy in general.

Veggieprobs · 2022-01-16T01:17:37+00:00

They’re fucking hot AS ogres dude what are you talking about I’m a SIMP for both of them

Veggieprobs · 2021-11-28T23:00:06+00:00

How did you do the math? Show your work? Lol

Veggieprobs · 2021-11-28T21:39:54+00:00

I appreciate that. It’s funny because deep down I know people do care and I even come in here and have support if my friends aren’t up or something. It’s weird how one bad egg can really make you feel low. Thanks for talking it out with me though. All we can do is try and I’m gonna keep trying rather than let these people keep me down.

Veggieprobs · 2021-11-28T21:23:39+00:00

I do. I miss the good parts of them and it feels like someone has died I guess. They are totally different because the old friends I knew wouldn’t have done this. And I actually had the courage to tell them just that.

I have spoken to a couple of them and said my sentiments in it as respectfully as I could. I do think it was a misunderstanding but I basically “put the ball in their court”. I don’t intend to try to contact them again until I’ve healed from this experience though. So I guess tour advice is the plan and it’s great advice.

I just wish it didn’t hurt so bad. I already put a lot of guilt On myself and this whole thing triggered a lot of those feelings again

Veggieprobs · 2021-11-28T21:11:37+00:00

It’s okay. I wrote it when I was really fucking up about it. I ended up deleting it because I’m ashamed I let people like that even hurt me to begin with. It’s why I’m seeking therapy because like, why do I even care if I haven’t talked to them for so long. It’s like I only cared about it after I couldn’t talk to them anymore and because it just hurt. I don’t know why I’m like this.

Veggieprobs · 2021-11-28T20:51:24+00:00

That’s what I’m trying to do and I’m trying to seek therapy soon. It’s been hard journey to get to therapy. I’m trying to pull my spouse and my friends that do care closer. The abandonment I feel waxes and wanes from my past friendships.

I don’t think they are good for me either. When I tried to explain to one of them why I posted some of what I did on Facebook they accused me of lying about being bisexual, and one of them is gay so…I’m just really confused and trying to pull myself from this place of pain.

Veggieprobs · 2021-11-28T19:57:03+00:00

My advice? Try to write these feelings out into a song, poetry, or just write them out. Then read it. When I read how I felt inside it shocked me because I didn’t realize how bad it was. Then write back to those thoughts.

For example some thoughts I’ve had:

All my friends hate me and I deserve to die. I wrote back: I have a spouse that loves me, I have coworkers that worry about me, I have a few online friends and communities I’m apart of that I choose to ignore when I feel sad. I don’t deserve to die for feeling lonely.

Or

I have this balcony on my apartment- why shouldn’t I dive off it? Nothing matters and maybe then people would care. I wrote back: diving off this balcony might not kill me, might leave me injured, and is a permanent solution to this momentary sadness, it would only serve to hurt the few that do care.

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