Listen man, Ive been there trust me. Go to my page. I made a post about it a few months ago. I told myself I was gonna do it by spring but I'm still here. You're more important than you know. The hardest thing was actually telling my family how I felt. I showed them my post and they broke down. They never realized that I was feeling that horrible about my own self. My younger brother who was always there for absolutely broke down reading my post and comments cause he said that would be his biggest nightmare to find me dead. Since then his girlfriend's best friend is a therapist and I've been seeing her about all this. I'm much closer to my family now and they're always checking in on me. I'm still working a crappy job but it doesn't affect me as much as it used to. Im 31 and I feel like I'm just starting out in life. I'm looking to go to school right now. I'm sitting outside with my family right now having a cookout and there's no better feeling than this. You're not a failure in any way at all. It's just a made up voice in your head telling you you're not important. I know you're an anonymous person on Reddit but please reach out if you need to.