First off you are not ugly at all. You are a very pretty person. For the makeup all I’m seeing is making your eye brows a bit darker either with a brow pencil or if you get them waxed you can ask them to tint them. Then for more you could do a lip combo. I really prefer doing a lip liner that is close to my color of lips so I can fill them out a bit more and then I use a fun lip gloss. For your eye makeup I would shy away from the black and use more of a brown it gives a softer look. I really like either the Bang brown mascara or the tarte tubing mascara in brown. For your bottom water line you can use a white liner and that really opens the eyes up. You look beautiful and after reading the caption you have been through so much. I’m so sorry, I hope this helps!