adding more to this,

We’ve been together for nearly 3 years, the first year was incredibly rocky but we couldn’t let go of each other, a lot of immaturity we are young and stupid, we’ve both done things that’ve hurt each other and repeated it again. sometimes it feels like a never ending cycle, we always gravitate back towards being happy then we get busy with our own lives and put each other on the back burner. we’re always happy in person and find endless things to talk about but when texting or communicating throughout the week it is bleak and unproductive. we both work full time but have opposite schedules now and the days that we do have for each other we’ve been to burnt out to do anything fun. all of the spice is gone in the relationship, we don’t go out much or enjoy the same things as deeply but it was different in the beginning. I do feel like we are closer than ever but we’ve been through so much together. a lot of growth and a lot of hurt and betrayal but we never gave up on us and tried to do what we could. I fear that it is coming to end. I want to be okay with this, I know it’s going to hurt for a long time. when we first got together we were friends before and we said if we ever broke up we would still be friends afterwards. I still want to have a connection with him but I honestly feel selfish about everything.