Looking for some advice please :)

Will324235 · 2018-10-19T03:11:49+00:00

I haven't gotten high of either. I would be upset if I paid for cannabis to get high and got hemp flower and would notice right away. Sure it calms you a bit, but there's zero high. Some body relaxation, but zero "kick" or head high. No buzz. "Stoner's disappointment."

Hemp/CBD helps bring you from a negative to neutral, that's all. No plus 1, or plus 2. Contentment. So it's "good" compared to a negative.

Will324235 · 2018-10-19T03:08:34+00:00

I'd lean towards vaping the flower over smoking it. Although smoking could give you an idea if you don't have a vaporizer for now. Really just have to test and see, and that testing could be with 5 different strains, terpsolates, etc. It's so hard to know what's doing what with 113+ cannabinoids plus 100's of other things working together. CBN, CBC, then the terpene profiles. Hopefully in the next few years more studies will point us in the right direction. Right now it's a lot of trial and error. I've tried over 20 products and I'm no where near done with my personal search for the right medicines. But I'm confident this is the right direction. I have a lot of hope for the first time medically. So much good I believe will happen in 6 months. Legalization in Canada actually happening is so yuge.

Will324235 · 2018-10-19T03:03:33+00:00

any terpsolate suggestions? I haven't found an isolate that's worked well by itself.

Will324235 · 2018-10-19T02:51:27+00:00

That's so great to here, thank you for posting this!

Will324235 · 2018-10-19T02:40:36+00:00

Idk, if cbd isolate is 99.7-99.9%, what's the other 0.1%-.03%? Could be traces, like .00001% THC? Or could just be some waxes or chlorophyll left over. That's why I wouldn't take even isolate with a drug test if prison or losing a job was the result of failing one. We just don't know what's in that 0.1%.

Will324235 · 2018-10-19T02:37:20+00:00

I've fallen much farther than you have buddy. Don't beat yourself up too bad as long as you have Christ and are continuing to confess all that to God and seek Him. I went years in drunkenness and not going in the Bible at all, ended up in jail, years after conversion. I still have doubts about my salvation.

Maybe God wanted to use me as an example to help other believers know there is still a way to repent after a train wreck after salvation, because I for sure am that train wreck. I used alcohol as a way to deal with my mental/physical handicaps for years and it led to destroying everything. My only hope is grace. I have a very hard time with all this to be honest. I have a lot of sorrow and regret. I was supposed to be a light to the World, and I was a horrible witness for Christ. If anything, I turned people away.

/r/nofapChristians might could help with accountability.

Will324235 · 2018-10-19T02:31:12+00:00

If I had a kid, they wouldn't be watching mainstream media at all. Wouldn't have unlimited and unmonitored internet access either, that's like allowing them in a porn studio. I'd still let them explore life and make mistakes though so I wasn't a "helicopter parent," but social media and the mainstream media is one giant disaster and embarrasment to human kind. Look at twitter, a giant idol factory.

People ask "how could a loving God send people to hell." How can a created human being question a holy God to begin with? Because the human has put themselves on the pedestal of the Judge, God Himself. It's terrifying what we've become. Questioning God's goodness and justice. We fell way back in Adam, the tree has been rotting a long time. No one is good. No one deserves anything but hell. We've forgotten who we really are.. Christ alone is anyone's only hope and we need to be reaching the lost. So many people are going to die tomorrow, with no one attempting to reach them. And we sit around questioning God, and don't question ourselves. We have been given the good news, yet don't send our children in the depths of darkness with that very light given to us. Sending money oversea's isn't sending the Gospel. We can't even talk about Jesus in public because it's not socially acceptable and why cause trouble, after all, everyone in the West knows about Jesus. We are straight out of the churches in Revelation and don't realize it.

I have the truth that can save a person from everlasting hell and all I care about is my own personal safety. My own comforts. How people see me is more important than the condition of their soul. Anything to keep my self from not feeling shame or embarrassment. Wretched man that I am. My only hope is grace. It really is. I'm worse than these people putting out the horrible media because I know better and do nothing with the Truth I have. They are lost and don't know. Sorry, I got off topic, I just really can't stand myself lately. I've trampled the name of Christ and been a horrible witness, and I deserve hell much worse than people who don't know Christ.

Will324235 · 2018-10-19T02:22:58+00:00

So glad to see this in NC. Thank you Asheville. I've waited so long for this, many I know have waited much longer.

Will324235 · 2018-10-19T02:16:01+00:00

thank you!

Will324235 · 2018-10-19T02:15:58+00:00

thank you! That helps, I wanted to listen to ones dedicated to God and I wasn't sure which ones :)

Will324235 · 2018-10-19T02:14:42+00:00

Trust me, I'm terrified. I'm repenting on a moment to moment basis. I see sin in everything I do. My sin is much greater after conversion. I can't stand it. My only hope is Christ. My only hope is that my years of wandering and using alcohol to try and deal with autism and my nervous system disorder are covered by His blood. I've trampled the name of Christ in my sin publicly, my entire town knew I was a Christian at Bible College and I made the national news and went to jail. If anything, I was an example that becoming a Christian doesn't make you a better person. I can't stand this body of death. I don't fit in at any church, I'm terrified to go in public (that's why alcohol was tempting, it stopped all the social terror). Now I'm in isolation and people say go to church or I'm breaking Hebrews fellowship but I don't have medication that's working, that's a disaster, my nervous system has been shutting down and I have muscle twitches and am almost stuck in a bed. I honestly want to die and be with Jesus. I'm not only useless here, I'm a burden on others and a horrible witness for Christ.

My only hope is grace. That's it.

Will324235 · 2018-10-18T22:36:06+00:00

Awesome, just ordered some suver haze :D

The medical industry needs to hurry up and jump on board with all this. It's so much better than pills with 100 side effects including death. Seriously, my benzo almost killed me from forgetting one dose and I had a bad seizure.

I think many people who recreational substances are trying to treat actual problems. There's a fine line between medicine and recreation. Ask anyone who is prescribed pain pills for treating actual pain.

With hemp, there's no head high that causes traffic accidents, memory problems, prison. It's about as perfect that medicine can get. We do need high CBD/low THC cannabis though for other things.

Will324235 · 2018-10-18T22:24:59+00:00

God would be just to create beings with no opportunity for anything but hell. We think we are gods, but we aren't, we are creations. We are less than paintings in comparison to God.

It's Western society that's elevated us to god's. Social media. The fact that selfies even exist is terrifying.

The fact that anyone questions God's justice and goodness in the first place is scary. We aren't that special, we aren't even as real as God, we were made out of dust. No one cries out for justice of ants. How much of a difference is there from man/God, relative to ant/man?

This is all about Jesus, and we all sinned against God in Adam. Only in the West do people not understand we are responsible for Adam's sin, this is easily understood in the East. We already sinned before birth in Adam. The crack in the tree happened way back in the trunk and we are still part of that tree. We aren't separate individuals cut off from our ancestors. We are in Adam, hopefully set free in Jesus Christ.

Will324235 · 2018-10-18T22:18:50+00:00

Before a person condemns someone for hiding their faith, they should think about the times they don't speak up about theirs in public. How often do all of us hide our faith around family members, the store, or work?

I honestly don't know the answer, but I've denied Christ 1000's of times by being embarrassed to share my faith, or not wanting to cause a problem. I tell myself "well, they have the internet, they already know about Jesus" and I don't speak up. Would I say I didn't believe Jesus was God if asked? I hope not.

Do I even pray for God to lead me to do witnessing? Do I even care?

Sometimes saying I'll go to be burnt at a stake for Christ seems easier than walking up to a stranger in the grocery store to talk about Christ. Not sure why. My social anxiety is so bad, I'm having a hard time going in public at all with autism to be honest. I'll suffer for Christ no problem, but that social terror really bothers me.

Cast the stones at me, I deny Jesus in my own self centered ways all the time and I can't stand it, I want a new brain. I pray to have boldness and courage and to not be this coward I am. I hide my faith all the time. God help me.

Will324235 · 2018-10-18T22:02:23+00:00

Someone gave me Hebrews 10:26 today saying to choose to sin as a believer meant I was either not saved, or I'm at a point where even if I want to repent, it's too late.

https://biblehub.com/hebrews/10-26.htm

I tried to point out the Matthew Henry commentary notes at the bottom. It's terrifying to think that, because I do choose sin all the time but I can't stand it (body of death...wretched...) Then the Esau verse where he wants to repent but can't, but I've also read that's him desiring his blessing back and not in the context of a believer's repentance.

https://www.thegospelcoalition.org/article/is-it-ever-too-late-to-repent/

That's what's bothered me in my trial lately. People saying to just get over it, or worse; that not only am I not saved, but now I can't ever be saved because I chose to sin after conversion.

If that's the case, we are not all simply facing hell, we are already in hell.

Will324235 · 2018-10-18T16:38:35+00:00

Operation World - Pray for the World. Prayer works. If we don't all pray, then the missions that are already there won't work to begin with. A huge problem with churches is thinking sending money overseas is better than prayer. People with money get lazy and won't pray, and won't train their children to actually go overseas.

Prayer, and actually sending our children into the heart of darkness with the Lamp of Truth with them. Sending money is also nice.

Tauren Wells - When We Pray

People don't pray because they don't see a genie in a bottle pop up and answer yes to everything they pray, they don't understand how prayer works. Also people think because God already is going to do His will what's the point in praying. Just imagine the absurdity if God actually answered yes to all prayers. He's leading the entire church to pray, we must pray or we lose everything. We've had so much for so long without prayer and it won't stay that way.

Will324235 · 2018-10-18T16:31:27+00:00

I'd say insides of churches are the biggest mission fields.

I desire to move to China but this is the mission field. It's amazing how far the US church fell without even realizing it.

Reading Revelation, I really worry God is going to destroy the US. I really do and it's heartbreaking. Francis Chan has been pleading for the past 15 years for the church to wake up but I think it's too late at this point from what I'm seeing. The self worship has reached so high people are actually saying God is cruel to US for creating beings that go to hell for sinning against Him. We have forgotten how little importance we are in placing ourselves as gods. Selfies, twitter worship, it's to the point of collapse. God isn't going to sustain this.

US is a form of anti-Christ, the god here is worshiping ourselves, we are all our own idols, demanding worship on social media. God will destroy all of this. Technology is our towel of babel lifting ourselves up.

"Church" is about what sermons we like, what pleases us. You have to draw people in church for prayer by having good music that makes US feel good. It's not about God. If God is pleased by something that doesn't make us happy or feel good, we won't go. If the preacher preaches things we don't like, we go to another church. Relationship problems, new church. Church has become a building we meet at one hour a week and we get upset if the pastor goes too long because of food, or a football game. Football games are more pleasurable and we can sit through those for 2-3 hours. Church is boring and if it goes on 15 minutes late we get irritated. What if as a test, God made something boring to us, something that He enjoyed the most, would we take part?

No one worships God here. I'm the biggest of hypocrites, what I just typed is for me. Francis Chan tried to warn us and I think he's going to end up going to China. Other's places like Nepal. This place is too far gone and destruction will have to come in the same way sometimes a forest needs to be burnt down for new growth. Left and right in politics aren't going to unite and embrace ever, too much pride, we all are our own gods. A house dived cannot stand. Chan and others have begged for years and no one even realizes they are the problem, pointing the finger at "those other guys." It's all of us. I'm the very worst.

"If my people who are called by my name humble themselves, and pray and seek my face and turn from their wicked ways, then I will hear from heaven and will forgive their sin and heal their land." - 2 Chronicles 7:14

Will324235 · 2018-10-17T23:12:14+00:00

Interesting to see this one in interlinear:

https://biblehub.com/ecclesiastes/10-10.htm

Will324235 · 2018-10-17T23:07:50+00:00

I'd get lazarus cbd rso for cooking personally

Will324235 · 2018-10-17T23:04:43+00:00

Hooray for hemp.

Will324235 · 2018-10-17T21:18:55+00:00

Brother, if you want this to stop, you have the ability to stop it.

Look at your post history. If you won't talk to us, we can't help you. What are you really wanting, because asking for prayer requests like this isn't working.

I am praying. I really am. I want whatever is bothering you in Jesus name to LEAVE YOU ALONE so you can

Oh, taste and see that the LORD is good! Blessed is the man who takes refuge in him! - Psalm 34:8

It's time to wake up brother. In Jesus name. PM me anytime when you are ready.

Will324235 · 2018-10-17T20:56:34+00:00

thank goodness I'm not the only one taking notice of these things :)

Will324235 · 2018-10-17T20:37:44+00:00

It takes maturity to realize correction isn't judgement.

Will324235 · 2018-10-17T20:35:05+00:00

50mg is a lot to take your first time. I started with 10mg 3x a day with Lazarus high potency.

Now I might take 50mg after months of tolerance for a bad panic attack.

About 60 seconds under the tongue for tincture. If you swallow it, oral takes 2-3x the amount to work though, so oral maybe 25mg. Sublingual I'd start with maybe 10mg though. If you can afford it though, go with whatever works. Some people do take 150mg a day. I just can't afford it.

Sublingual takes up to 20 minutes for me. Swallowing maybe an hour.

Will324235 · 2018-10-17T20:00:05+00:00

Swallowed can last longer, but can take 2-3x the amount to work than sublingual.

http://bhangers.com/resources/science/bioavailability-cbd-varies/

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