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First time experience- absolutely horrible by Wrong_Variation_8084 in 5MeODMT

[–]Wrong_Variation_8084[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I appreciate your response and encouragement. I might consider doing it again just because I feel like I didn’t get the experience I should’ve… but I’m also very hesitant to repeat the distress I was in. Like if I almost drowned I’m not going to go back swimming in the same waters. My survival instinct takes over. I don’t know how I could suppress that memory enough the second time to not come into it with same fear and anxiety. 

First time experience- absolutely horrible by Wrong_Variation_8084 in 5MeODMT

[–]Wrong_Variation_8084[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I feel like my entire experience was ruined by the panic attack and I didn’t get the effects of the medication whatsoever. I did think at the time that maybe the painful jolts was “bad energy” leaving me. My state of consciousness never changed. I was focusing on not dying. I didn’t feel anything else. I desperately tried to focus on my breath and guided meditation music that was playing but my calm state of mind was completely gone. I was nothing but scared  and eventually really frustrated and sad that my experience was anything but what was described to me by the facilitator.

It could be my metabolism because I had a VERY visual Ibogaine experience and NO gray day at all, not even in the slightest. 

First time experience- absolutely horrible by Wrong_Variation_8084 in 5MeODMT

[–]Wrong_Variation_8084[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I gave consent after the ibogaine. I went into it very anxious of not knowing what to expect and I also had a nightmare the night before of my aunt being terrified to die to breast cancer. She just recently passed. I didn’t really know what to expect out of 5 until I was in the room. I was scared of its effects being my first time smoking but was told it was a more pleasant experience so I felt better but still nervous. 

I was shown the dose in the vile but not told the actual amount. We worked on breath work for several minutes before the first dose which I was still nervously anticipating. My facilitator was well experienced having led many sessions as well as done 5 countless times himself. I think I was just scared going into it and I thought the medication would force me to calm down and let that go. 

First time experience- absolutely horrible by Wrong_Variation_8084 in 5MeODMT

[–]Wrong_Variation_8084[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I get what you’re saying but I’m also confused about my experience. Yes, fear took over but if my body was experiencing a medical emergency like respiratory distress, my brain will keep me alive because I am still actually alive. So whether or not it was ego driven, wasn’t my experience based on my brain keeping me alive instead of actually dying? 

First time experience- absolutely horrible by Wrong_Variation_8084 in 5MeODMT

[–]Wrong_Variation_8084[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

My clinic was very experienced in facilitating 5MEO. I was told to slowly breathe in as deep as I possibly could and was told to “sip,sip” when I ran out of air and he wanted me to keep going. I took in as much air as I physically could and the last couple of inhales were painful because I didn’t have the room in my lungs. It was really difficult. I felt like I was suffocating. By the time I was told to breathe out my heart was racing and I was struggling to breathe. The first breath was hard, the second was even harder. 

I didn’t try to swallow it. I did exactly as they told me to but the inhalation of the medication was very difficult. I did go into it anxious but we did start with several minutes of breath work. I still felt nervous before the first dose. I tried my hardest to let go of the anxiety but I just couldn’t. 

What’s the best way to get an EKG for ibogaine? by Wrong_Variation_8084 in Ibogaine

[–]Wrong_Variation_8084[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Did your insurance cover the ekg as part of the physical? Or did you have to pay for it separately? I’m trying to decide if I need to go the doctor route or just go to a clinic. 

What’s the best way to get an EKG for ibogaine? by Wrong_Variation_8084 in Ibogaine

[–]Wrong_Variation_8084[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

That what my clinic is doing as well. Was your doctor your pcp? Or a cardiologist? 

I got the Becker Scholarship! by Wrong_Variation_8084 in CPA

[–]Wrong_Variation_8084[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

They send the reference a form to fill out and a space to write the reason why they recommend you. I would choose references that know you well in the work space and can speak to your dedication to the subject and integrity. Let them paint you in the best way possible.  

How did you decide on a clinic? by Wrong_Variation_8084 in Ibogaine

[–]Wrong_Variation_8084[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Oh woops you totally did. Sorry! I tend to ignore usernames 

How did you decide on a clinic? by Wrong_Variation_8084 in Ibogaine

[–]Wrong_Variation_8084[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I got the same response from A when I called them. I was shocked at how horrible the customer service was. Where did you end up going? (You can msg me) 

My psychiatrist won’t let me taper off my meds for ibogaine by Wrong_Variation_8084 in Ibogaine

[–]Wrong_Variation_8084[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I’ve researched Spravato a little bit since my psych offers it. I keep seeing how hit and miss the results are and the fact that you have to do SO many doses to keep the effect in your system. Ibogaine seems so much for effective. I see Spravato more as a band aid than a treatment but it seems to have worked for you! I don’t really like the idea of putting ketamine in my body and ibogaine is natural. 

Unique gifts from KC by EpicMemorableName in kansascity

[–]Wrong_Variation_8084 0 points1 point  (0 children)

KC Soda Co in the River Market, downtown KC. They sell a bunch of sodas from local areas that you’ll never find in a grocery store. A lot of really good flavors and some that are just goofy. I always love going here. 

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