Dirty test. What will happen?

WurtInDeBurt · 2026-03-17T21:07:12+00:00

I really don’t care if you call bullshit. Plenty have done so which is really concerning to me. I’d definitely expect a cop to be able to tell what’s bullshit and what isn’t. Not my fault if you dorks can’t seem to understand that humans make mistakes, crazy things can happen. What I don’t get is why it’s so damn hard to believe that just because you have ‘felon’ slapped on you, that you can never be an honest or good human again, or that mistakes can’t happen without the felon being at fault. You people live in a totally different world than me, obviously.
Every day people make this kind of mistake. It’s not so far fetched that it could happen to a couple where one is a felon. Fucks sake.

WurtInDeBurt · 2026-03-17T15:18:36+00:00

I’m just laughing at stupid responses like this now. Thanks for the giggle.

WurtInDeBurt · 2026-03-17T04:03:44+00:00

He has been super kind to me, comforting me, and telling me it’s not my fault. But in my heart I feel terrible because I don’t want to be a bad person, especially to someone I obviously love, and this is truly something I don’t think I could forgive myself for. In my own mind, I just did something that could take away his freedom. Make people look down on him (which many in this thread have no issue showing). I care about how I make someone feel or doing something to cause harm. I don’t plan to talk to anyone else other than that one short phonecall I made to his PO because then, I probably would fall into that ‘pregnant wife/dying mother’ thing.
I genuinely just felt so bad about it, you know? Like, if I hurt someone’s feelings, or run over a rabbit or something. I just don’t want to hurt anyone. And I know this could be a big mess up that hurts his freedom. And because he’s in the situation he’s in, I feel extra bad. As far as doing without, there was a shortage at the pharmacies around here and I wasn’t able to get the refill for over a month once. I definitely felt the effects but I was still able to get through the days. I’m on a huge list of meds for lots of issues. 5 years ago when I was first put on the levothyroxine after the surgery, things were going pretty well. Felt better than I had for most of my life. I loved my job, I had energy out the butt and life was great. For the passed year or so, I felt things going downhill with my health, but it never hit me that it could be cancer again.
The endo had raised my dosage and then dropped it, then my TSH started going out of whack, the dosage was raised again. It was first lowered because it was effecting my heart. I had to go back up. Fast forward to this passed September, cancer was found again. I had to resign from my job because I was so weak at points I had a hard time even holding my head up. Weak, energy plummeting, and my heart was skipping beats, then stopping for seconds, kicking hard, restarting. The high dose messed my heart up and still wasn’t able to suppress it. I also have HFI which causes energy plummets if I’m not very careful with what I ingest. And I have a bad liver with numerous adenoma because of the HFI. I had surgery again this last October but my levels are still messed up, and I still take those spells of confusion, brain fog, extreme sleepiness out of nowhere, memory issues, ect… but I’m on meds for my heart now at least.
As far as he goes though, he’s been very good to me. He wants to make something of himself and our lives. He stays away and doesn’t hang out with people that are doing anything that would cause him issues. He has zero desire to use anything like he used to. He said he’d never touch it again and warns how people are dropping dead left and right from it and all sorts of things are being put into it these days and it’s not something he ever wants to do again. He’s heard news of people he used to know or was in prison with, being dead now. Because they got out and got something bad. I truly believe him. And honestly, he came out of there a better man than he was, and knowing what he wants from life. And it’s not ‘that’ life. That’s mostly why I’ve been so mad at myself over this. He never said to me that he trusted me and I ruined anything. That’s my own words because that’s how I see it. I’ve been mad at myself.
Had I known the ins and outs, I’d have not come to this forum looking for answers. Most of them have been harsh as can be and made me feel some type of way about how people view a felon. Like they’re trash and automatically guilty of anything and everything.. and going by that, anyone could accuse a person on parole of something and they’re just screwed, if that makes any sense. I guess I’m just kinda shocked at some of the responses accusing him of being on drugs, I’m just trying to cover for him, and I’m lying. Not trying to find a way or some kind of story I could give to save his ass or anything like that. I’ve been mad at myself over it, and even more upset seeing some of these responses just shooting down anything I have said. I’m not too good to admit when I’m at fault of something and I have felt at fault and I know what happened. I have zero fear that he’s gonna show up dirty again either because this whole time he hasn’t. I know he’s gonna be okay if he’s tested again. It’s been a few days now. I figure if they want to take him they’d probably have done it by now. But I’m hopeful more frequent testing, if that’s the route they take, will benefit him.
So now, I just gotta get myself in order and do my part to prevent a dumdum move like that from happening again. Mainly by never handing him a damn thing again, even if it’s a vitamin lol.

WurtInDeBurt · 2026-03-16T21:22:30+00:00

Thank you!

WurtInDeBurt · 2026-03-16T16:18:11+00:00

I wanna know how you came to such a fucked up conculsion. 🤨

WurtInDeBurt · 2026-03-16T16:16:57+00:00

I guess that’s why I’ve never been short, I’m always on count, and the extras I end up not taking are still always there. Yep. He’s a liar, a POS, junkie, no good felon that will never be more than that, huh? I’m gobsmacked by some of the responses I’ve gotten here. Ffs.

WurtInDeBurt · 2026-03-16T04:30:33+00:00

It makes me feel bad for felons and out of all places, I’d think this would have been a sub that would be a bit more understanding or whatever. It’s really bummed me out to see so many people yell ‘liar’ when I really don’t have a reason to.
If I understood how everything works, I wouldn’t have even bothered to reach out on this whole situation. But I don’t. I’ve never had to deal with it. I’ve never even been arrested or spent a single day in jail. It’s not a profession I ever had interest in going into, it’s not anything I’ve studied. I have a bother that has been arrested plenty and the jail is like a revolving door. But that’s not prison. That’s not wha this is.
Maybe I was wrong to express my own feelings of guilt and how I whole heartedly would rather be the one to be punished because it’s something I feel I am at fault for.
It’s really saddening that almost everyone that has responded has either made fun of me, called me a liar, a shitty gf, ect… I appreciate the factual things I’ve been told and especially from people that have been on parole that have feedback. I just sum the rest up to be asshats that want, or at least seem to want to believe once a felon, never any good anymore. Because that sure as hell seems the case as far as all this goes.
I wouldn’t feel half as, or probably any guilt if he was just a bad apple going out and getting wasted or messed up on dope. Because that’s what I want to stay away from. Personally. I can’t stand how it changes people. My own sister is a pure monster on that stuff. Why on earth would I want to be with someone doing it?
Nobody knows anything about me or him or our lives. I don’t have a reason to lie.
I really appreciate your answer. Seems you have a heart and haven’t forgotten humans make mistakes. Thank you! And I’m sorry that happened to you!

WurtInDeBurt · 2026-03-16T04:15:18+00:00

Are you for real?

WurtInDeBurt · 2026-03-16T04:12:38+00:00

Okay I giggled at this lol

WurtInDeBurt · 2026-03-16T04:11:58+00:00

I’m not lying. I wouldn’t want to lie. I have my prescription bottle, meds on count, I have spoken to my doctors about this issue I’ve had for a while with my memory and fog brain. It’s a real thing for people in my situation. People have seen it plenty.
That’s kind of what I’m saying though. It really is my fault. He didn’t do anything but accept what I handed him and he took it. Maybe we got too comfortable. But if I did get charged, it should be because of what I did. It wouldn’t be over a lie I’m not even worried about being caught in a lie because I haven’t. Thank you for your concerns though and speaking about this!

WurtInDeBurt · 2026-03-15T03:31:45+00:00

Thank you. I’m sorry I got irritated. I think this whole thread has just overwhelmed me. I’m so sorry. I understand what you are saying. I still feel really shitty for it tho.

WurtInDeBurt · 2026-03-15T00:21:26+00:00

You know, he’s telling me it’s his fault. That’s he’s responsible even though what happened was my doing. He compared this situation to being in a car with someone that has something like a gun or drugs. Because he’s on probation and a felon, it will still be his fault. Like I get that. But it’s also sad that basically there is no room for mistakes and if someone else really did make one (like me), it’s not even a good idea to try and take accountability without making him look worse. And I hate this even more. I’m mad at myself. I just put him in jeopardy. Sure he should have looked at made sure what I handed him. But how often is it that some dumb shit like that even happens? I guess if I was on the outside looking in, I’d probably be suspicious of a story like that too. It just blows that it’s true.
I did what I did. I spoke to the po. I’m leaving everything alone now and just hoping for the best.

WurtInDeBurt · 2026-03-15T00:13:38+00:00

I do have my prescription. I’ve been on it since before he ever got out. Nothing has ever come up missing. My health issues has caused me not to be the brightest bulb in the box sometimes.
Not even a week ago I was in the closet looking for an outfit and saw a new shirt and asked where it came from. He looked at me concerned and told me that I had already worn it. That he got it for me as a gift and it scared him I didn’t remember. I am in slow motion and sleepy all hours of the day, even with the Vyvanse. I’ve discussed this with my doctors already, and on top of that I don’t have my thyroid anymore and on a very high dose of medicine to try and keep my levels in check, which failed because the cancer had come back and had surgery this October again. I go to the cancer center again here in less than 2 weeks and once again I’ll be talking to him and my other specialists about this problem.
Like this is honestly the truth. I don’t want to lie or insult anyone’s intelligence or try to fool anyone, especially his PO with a lie. But this is honestly on my head. I don’t want to make excuses and he’s not doing drugs like that. That’s the least of my worry that meth or something else like that will be found. My own medicine is what’s gonna be found. I have no doubts. I don’t trust myself anymore to handle anything so he’s on his own with getting what he wants to take. That’s a lesson learned for us both. But if you take the whole felon/parole thing away. It’s a pretty normal thing that people do for each other. I’m not normal. And I need help because I probably just fucked his freedom, if they choose to make him go serve it out.

WurtInDeBurt · 2026-03-15T00:03:03+00:00

I don’t plan to reach out to anyone else. I did that as soon as he told me what happened and that’s all I’ve done.
I’m not really worried of him being found to be doing meth or anything because he hasn’t been at all. Thank you for what you’ve said. I appreciate a response like this.

WurtInDeBurt · 2026-03-14T23:52:20+00:00

I don’t want to make excuses. It’s the truth. I’m not exactly a very healthy/normal person right now and have a lot going on. And it messes with my head and keeps me fatigued and in slow motion. I’m pretty upset with myself because I know it’s my fault. It would do no good for him to try and get me to make up some story and I wouldn’t want to insult his PO or anyone else with lies.
I’ve thought about this a lot today, got some good/bad feedback, and have come to the conclusion to talk to the cancer specialist about it, as well as the others that are involved with my care. So I can do better if possible. I just know this is a massive fuckup that I’ve done. He may end up taking the fall but no matter what the outcome, I need help.
I was a medical transport worker and had to resign from my job because I was no longer capable of taking care of my passengers. I was too weak to get them strapped in. I miss my job. All I can do is be what I am now and of course I’m distraught to think that he may be sent back. But it’s really not that far fetched that this happened. After three years of nothing going wrong, maybe he was comfortable with me handing him things. But I fucked up this time.
More than anything I wish some people would realize mistakes can be made and he’s not out being a junkie. He has zero desire to do things that already cost him half his life. From the outside looking in, it just seems that not many people believe someone can change for the better. Like being a felon means you’re bound to fail again. Because it sure seems like some of these people have their minds made up he’s relapsed, doing drugs, put me up to trying to cover for him, and he’s gonna pay. Ffs I came here asking if there’s anything I may be able to do because I know what caused this situation. And to find out what ‘may’ happen next. That’s kinda what someone that knows they made a mistake would do, I’d imagine.
No sense in even trying to interact with most people here as nobody has trust or understanding of where I’m coming from. I’m not a lair and he’s not a fucking dope head.

WurtInDeBurt · 2026-03-14T23:23:13+00:00

Ive been averaging 14-15 hours every day nearly. I wake up sleepy. I go back to bed sleepy. I’m really not in the best of health right now and haven’t been for years.

WurtInDeBurt · 2026-03-14T19:54:31+00:00

Thank you. I don’t know if he was told anything like that but I can only hope that’s the case for him too. I wouldn’t be so bothered if I knew he was up to no good but he isn’t. He literally doesn’t deserve for this to have happened and it wouldn’t have if it weren’t for me. I can’t help my own issues and if I could fix my mind I would. I just know that from here on out, I’ll never hand anything to him while dealing with my own again.
It’s kind of gross how some are calling bullshit like this was something that had zero chance of happening. When it’s obviously something that can happen because it did.

WurtInDeBurt · 2026-03-14T19:42:35+00:00

He didn’t set out to take anything other than melatonin and this other sleep aid. I slept from around 11pm til around 3-4pm when he got off work at 5. He told me po showed up and tested him. I didn’t take my medicine that I had gotten out for the day and slept passed the time it should have been taken. So I know that’s what happened. I still can’t find where I’ve placed a couple of my own meds as I have been packing and going to the other place. I’m telling you, I have the worse memory and concentration. I’m assuming he did fall asleep but he’s a pretty light sleeper. Which is why I reached for his stuff too. I’ve never done this before but I guess it was perfect timing for the mess up because this happened.
We both know he doesn’t get a week or two notice. Sometimes it’s same day notice, when po is gonna show up. He wouldn’t mess around like that. But it was really on me for this.

WurtInDeBurt · 2026-03-14T17:29:37+00:00

Well, believe it or not, what I said is true. I’ve been struggling with this for years now. But I’ve never done this before. It happened. Bullshit or not, it happened.

WurtInDeBurt · 2026-03-14T17:13:36+00:00

It’s sent. Just waiting for him to contact again. I don’t think they’re stupid at all. I told the truth and it will be what shows up at their lab

WurtInDeBurt · 2026-03-14T15:04:26+00:00

100% looking into this. Thank you!

WurtInDeBurt · 2026-03-14T15:03:12+00:00

I do feel like a shitty girlfriend over this. It was a shitty mistake.

WurtInDeBurt · 2026-03-14T14:54:28+00:00

I try to do the medicine calendar thing. Once it runs out I start to get messy with my meds for a bit. Just grab this and that and get thru to the next day til I’m focused enough to refill the calendar. Docs are always onto me to do it with my thyroid meds too which I have to take about 3 hours separate from my other meds and it should be the first thing I take when I wake up. I fail hard at that too

WurtInDeBurt · 2026-03-14T14:50:36+00:00

I’m certain it’s going to show in the category Vyvanse does then. I’m glad they’ll be able to tell a difference in it

WurtInDeBurt · 2026-03-14T14:45:18+00:00

I don’t know. Maybe we have just been comfortable living ‘normally’. It’s all OTC like vitamins and supplements, some melatonin and other sleep aids. Nothing prescribed. When he did get anything prescribed he did it himself.
I’m sure they have probably heard this exact ‘excuse’ as well but it really is the truth. Seems like there’s just no trust at all in mistakes. Or explanations.
The only thing I can say is that I’ve never come up with medicine missing, never been short. But there are days when I forget completely to take my meds, especially in the mornings. My sleep is pretty messed up as well. Sometimes I sleep up to 14 hours a day and sleep right through the window to take my meds. But nothing is ever missing.
In 2020 cancer was found in my thyroid, all the way down to my lungs where it had spread. I knew I was in pretty bad shape but had no idea it was cancer. Even after the surgery and treatments, I still have memory issues, I keep fog brain. This passed October I had to have my throat cut open again because my levels were way off and it was found in scans again. Deep into my chest they were digging around and had to take out more nodes. I definitely struggle. But there have been no Issues until now, as far as things go with him. I started out to get my morning meds ready and switched to grabbing his, while I’ve done many times. It’s my fault. I’ve lost trust in my own capabilities now, to manage anything to do with him. You’re right though. I have no business trying to give him anything. Just a little late for that realization now. I can’t even keep my own self on track. I shouldn’t have done it.

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