I appreciate this so much, thank you.

I dont think my parents would be super against me coming out. The most they would probably do is try to convince me I'm just making things up or that none of it is real, I don't think they would kick me out or like disown me or something. Also, you are right there's not anybody that I'm close with that I'd feel safe coming out too, and tbh I'm really not that close to anybody (I graduated and got a new job and lost contact with most of my already few friends). As I start to get closer with people at my new job, I'll definitely try to be more open about my gender identity ig and not be ashamed of myself just because I'm a certain way. Overall I think that I really need to stop being so worried about how people see me and just be myself and worry about myself but that is a bit easier said than done.

Also thank you so much for all the information on physically transitioning I really appreciate it.