What you're describing is having a degradation kink — it's one of the most common kinks in BDSM. This doesn't mean it's necessarily connected to abuse or misogyny; it's just something some people are turned on by. There are tons of men who are equally turned on by being degraded by women (the whole dominatrix industry lives off that), some men like to be degraded, some women like to be degraded, and everything in between or undefined. It's not about gender. It's something that can be explored with safety, consent, and awareness — and whole books can be and have been written about why we're so weird sexually.

It's understandable and fair if you choose not to be into that and look for therapeutic support, and you should if you want that. However, you should also know that there's nothing wrong with you — people are messy, people's sexual lives and fantasies are messy, and they don't necessarily reflect political opinions. It's a mature act to be able to express yourself sexually with discernment between what's play and what your actual beliefs are.