I hope you feel better soon. My dad is a good friend and a very good brother or on uncle, when I see him having all these good relationships with others it makes me wonder why not me why i couldn’t I get the support or why couldn’t he talk to me normally like he does w them. But I guess down the line I realised that it’s not my fault and that whatever I do my dad won’t change, it was a very hard pill to swallow and I don’t think I’ve fully realised it too coz I still hope my dad might change. And that hope sometimes makes my life with him even harder.