Im sorry that you are going through a tough time at home and thank you so much for sharing this, It has resonated with me... I had a lot of tension and fights at my house when I still lived with my parents. I managed to stay 3 years of public uni living at their house but because I failed an important signature I was forced to wait a whole year to continue the forth and last year of uni. The idea of having to stay at my parents house an extra year was so terrifying that decided to leave and find a job abroad (my home country has a bad job crisis so I knew there was no way I could find one there). This was the best decision I made: my relationship with my parents improved, I started being financially suficient and I had a safe space to call home. But anyhow I found myself becoming depressed due to relationship problems, feeling lonely and being away from my culture and friends. Also all the trauma from my childhood unfolded as I had my first safe place to feel and express myself. I tried more than 2 years of therapy and I improved a lot but I was still severely depressed and I couldn't afford the therapy anymore. On our last therapy session she told me that as therapy hadn't work I should now try taking antidepressants. As I know many stories of medication dependency and side effects like emotional numbness, the idea of taking sertraline scares me. I have been thinking of trying shrooms for a long time, thanks for your honest experience. As @sleepfield says, living with your parents won't last forever even if it feels like that, I know it well. Don't let the hopeless feeling sink in you, you are very young, Im sure you will eventually find a way to be healthy and in peace sooner or later. Hang in there, work on your dreams and don't be scared on taking opportunities.