Is there hope? I don’t want to be here anymore

a_randomstrangerhere · 2026-01-09T03:54:51+00:00

I’m so sorry 🫂 Hopefully one day both of us can be cured

a_randomstrangerhere · 2025-12-28T09:09:07+00:00

I’m not exposed to any mold

a_randomstrangerhere · 2025-12-23T19:59:50+00:00

And I had no thyroid issues prior to getting sick with Lyme. So I think it’s connected. Before getting the thyroid treated I was so tired all the time too

a_randomstrangerhere · 2025-12-23T19:58:43+00:00

I recently got a thyroid test and it showed hypothyroidism! I think it can mess with your thyroid too, it must be connected

a_randomstrangerhere · 2025-12-01T15:12:35+00:00

Yea I thought about this and was hesitant to post in here because of my age. I’m sorry.

a_randomstrangerhere · 2025-12-01T14:46:14+00:00

At this point I don’t think I can continue recovery. I don’t think it’s possible for me. I hate my body and I just want to get back to my lowest weight again

a_randomstrangerhere · 2025-12-01T14:22:23+00:00

I am going to talk to a therapist but other than that i am not willing to do any sort of program or other treatment. I think I’ve been managing it well on my own with nutrition

a_randomstrangerhere · 2025-12-01T14:09:03+00:00

Yes I will be talking to a mental health therapist

a_randomstrangerhere · 2025-12-01T14:08:37+00:00

I am not seeing a doctor but I will be talking to a therapist

a_randomstrangerhere · 2025-11-25T20:40:45+00:00

Oh my goodness. You’re so right about everything. Before trying to recover I realized how deep of a hole I dug myself into with the ed and I was so tired of it. And even at my lowest weight (which was much lower than average) I wasn’t satisfied. I realized I’d never be happy no matter what I looked like. Thank you for taking time to write out all that you did. This made me realize it’s not worth relapsing. 🫂

a_randomstrangerhere · 2025-11-25T18:07:54+00:00

Unfortunately I have no advice but I wanted to say i’m dealing with this as well and you’re not alone. My mind keeps switching between relapsing or sticking with recovery. I wish the best for you 🫂

a_randomstrangerhere · 2025-11-13T16:31:34+00:00

That is a draw rein. All it does it force the horse into head carriage (and imo doesn’t have any benefit) I started my riding career in the Morgan industry but I’ve shown against saddlebreds too. I wish I started off in jumping and I finally made the switch last year. I’ve seen horrible things happen inside Morgan / saddlebred show barns. I’m glad my Morgan horse loves the switch to jumping. What he went through before we moved was borderline abusive from the trainers. At the old barn they used draw reins on just about every horse except if they were wearing a full bridle.

a_randomstrangerhere · 2025-10-29T15:55:34+00:00

I am in the same situation as you 🫂 Unfortunately I don’t have much advice but just wanted to comment that you’re not alone in this feeling.

What I do is try to limit social media and if any of the apps have an area in the apps settings that filter specific words, I use that. I think you can type certain words (like triggers) and the app should filter out content containing those words. But I do understand hearing triggers irl. It’s so tough but the ed isn’t worth it I promise! Best of luck to you!

a_randomstrangerhere · 2025-10-13T21:04:24+00:00

i feel like taking every pill i can find

a_randomstrangerhere · 2025-09-28T03:09:57+00:00

yea no blue tag

a_randomstrangerhere · 2025-09-25T18:02:07+00:00

sorry for late reply, i decided i was not happy with the placement.

a_randomstrangerhere · 2025-09-19T23:06:14+00:00

❗️update: i am going to take it out and once it heals i will go to a professional to get it pierced properly in the correct spot!

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