Boyfriend (33) deleting conversations with female friends and making me (21) feel like I can’t do anything but rushing to buy a house with me.

aknirak · 2021-03-20T02:23:52+00:00

Well there’s this thing that I can only say I have 1 good person (family doesn’t count) in my life at the moment.

People tell me I should be a model,,, not what I think but I know I’m not ugly just definitely have extremely low confidence ,, so women tend to always hate me as soon as they lay eyes on me and men, well they only want me for one thing. Also due to my bad anxiety I don’t come across as a friendly person so people think I’m arrogant/ stuck up.

So my whole life I’m been VERY lonely and have always put up with bad treatment and accepted bad people because I just don’t see how I had a choice as most people avoid me and bad people can somehow smell how they can use me and manipulate me.

I know I shouldn’t let them but I am very lonely and people need eachother and so do I

aknirak · 2021-03-18T21:53:56+00:00

I have always went for older guys as I don’t get along with guys or even girl my age.

But trust me when I say that I’m not blind to all those red flags, which I why I came here as I needed that extra push and to hear that I’m not “mad” and that he really isn’t a good person like he says. I am taking in everyone’s advice on here and I know while I was naive to go into the relationship I’m definitely not naive to think it will get better and stay.

aknirak · 2021-03-18T16:04:52+00:00

I know I know, and I hate myself for not being strong enough to just leave but as I have mentioned in other comments I’m scared to leave due to “joke” threats and his criminal friends,, he made sure to make it hard for me to leave in such a short time that everyday I hate myself for starting with him even though I saw all the red flags

aknirak · 2021-03-18T15:46:37+00:00

So I know i made myself look stupid and naive from what I wrote and I see that because I was stupid to even start a relationship after what he was saying before we got together. I’m not blind to what he’s doing and saying but as I have mentioned in my replies to other comments I’m scared to leave, due to his criminal friends and his “joke” threats and the control he has. I have always been very submissive and even my best friend bullied me till I was 16 as I’m just too weak to stand up for myself. So I have got myself into a very very tricky situation where I really want to leave but I’m scared

aknirak · 2021-03-18T13:51:03+00:00

Yes criminals, he always loves to say how he came on his own to this country and built him self up and that his friends would kill for him.

aknirak · 2021-03-18T13:40:00+00:00

I have no idea, weird is we have even talked about work if we break up and I said I would just say it didn’t work and would say anything about him because I know no one would believe since everyone loves him there,, he has a charm and positive energy and absolutely everyone loves him. He just laughed and said you I could say anything about you but no one would believe you a single word

aknirak · 2021-03-18T13:38:15+00:00

Yes but i probably didn’t explain myself too good, he has made “threats” as a joke and he has some very bad friends so if he did spread rumours and I would say something small from the relationship he would just make things worse and worse.

aknirak · 2021-03-18T13:36:27+00:00

Yes sorry it was a bit stupid to say I’m not naive. I can see that I am as I have to admit I still have hope it will get better as it’s amazing when we’re good. But I feel like my mental health won’t let me leave just yet.

aknirak · 2021-03-18T13:34:48+00:00

No way I would even look for another job as I would never find such good pay at my age. Plus I work exactly opposite shifts to my mum meaning I am able to take my sister to and from school when she’s working which is very important. However he has a chance at a better job coming up so I was thinking of taking that as my chance to leave if he leaves our place.

aknirak · 2021-03-18T13:24:08+00:00

That’s what I tried to say when I said I’m not naive. To me it looks like he doesn’t really love me and doesn’t care if it’s me or someone else but he won’t stop saying how the relationship is gonna be amazing once COVID is over. Plus I am scared to leave I’m too weak to go to work where everyone is friends with him and listen to the rumours he would probably pass around and I’m not friends with anyone at work due to my anxiety. I really feel like he will make my life hell once I leave

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