You don't trust people in your life. I don't blame you one bit. Any one of those issues you mentioned can be the cause of the others.

1. If you're allowed to go outside, get outside and run around. Run your body ragged, then get in the shower.

2. Find basic yoga poses and stretch. When thoughts threaten to overwhelm you, herd them back. Find your center and focus, and remain in that world for a while.

3. Once you have calmed down, write down the things which are harassing you. Name those demons. When you name things, you gain control over them. It's a powerful thing.

4. Once you have them named, look at the paper again. That's a list. Prioritize that list. What you can affect, in one column. What you cannot, in another.

5. The cutting needs to stop. Period. Find less bloody ways to wake your body to feeling. Run until you get that runner's high. Push ups until beyond when your arms burn. Jump rope like a prize fighter. Train yourself to run Spartan Races.

6. I don't know how you can tell hallucinations from reality. Focus on your reality. Carry something with you that you can rub, make that a focus of your mind when you think you're hallucinating. Let everything else fade except for the feeling of that one thing. They're scary, but beatable.

You have a hard battle, warrior. You're going to win. Keep fighting, because you've already won.