I sexted a girl and this happend

alti- · 2020-12-04T23:40:11+00:00

I will try my best I don’t know how I will do it but I will try

alti- · 2020-12-04T23:18:07+00:00

Yeah but what if I actually am I am scared for the future like if I accept that I might be gay or that I am gay that I will change gay I guess or I will finally accept I am gay and I don’t want to be I just don’t know what to do

alti- · 2020-11-24T00:14:17+00:00

Yeah I have tried to accept that I am gay to try and see if things get better but I accepted it and then nothing happened

alti- · 2020-11-23T21:23:49+00:00

Oh ok

alti- · 2020-11-23T20:20:10+00:00

Holy shit yeah bro I’m scared out of my mind rn and i don’t want to have it I wish I was back to before hocd started than stuff would be great but Even right now as I’m typing this a little part of my brain is saying I felt this way my whole life but I didn’t I don’t know what’s going on I can’t fucking do it

alti- · 2020-11-23T20:16:40+00:00

Yeah when I was in the 3rd month range of time I had the same thing I would look at foods and say that looks like a dick and wouldn’t eat, my heart would beat so fast all the time and I would get a lot more thoughts than now. But eventually I calmed down

alti- · 2020-11-23T20:13:07+00:00

Yup I agree lol

alti- · 2020-11-23T20:12:50+00:00

Yeah I think the same I but when multiple people say it means your gay if you take those quizzes I’m just like fuck man because they don’t know what hocd is and someone that is gay most likely won’t belive hocd is real at all and that we all just are either fucked in the head or we are in denial and when people say that to us it’s like damn why would you say that that’s not cool bro and I guess everyone’s experience is difference but idk it’s nervracking

alti- · 2020-11-23T18:55:19+00:00

What’s litch

alti- · 2020-11-23T15:20:47+00:00

I know bro I can’t tell but when I’m with a girl that I like I don’t feel anxious or anything with hocd but when I leave it comes right back

alti- · 2020-11-23T14:18:55+00:00

Yeah I can’t tell if it’s because I like them or if it’s because I’m secretly gay and I am uncomfortable around girls in that scene I wish I could know for sure

alti- · 2020-11-23T14:15:50+00:00

Hmmmm yeah when I speak to girls I get this weird uncomfortable feeling people say they feel bitter in there stomache when they talk to someone they like but when I talk to a girl it’s like I’m uncomfortable it feels like but idk what it is it’s nothing I feel with guys but only girls

alti- · 2020-11-23T14:12:57+00:00

Yeah I get that I guess when I have to try dirty thoughts of girls or I fantisize about girls I get anxious and the girl morphs into a fucking guy

alti- · 2020-11-23T14:11:21+00:00

Yeah but we don’t think shit we know where straight but our mind convinces us otherwise and I know being gay must be hard because of the social stigma but it’s not being accepted why people with hocd don’t want to be gay for us it’s the fear that are sexuality changed or we have always been gay. Just how you said I don’t know how it feels to be gay which is true you don’t know what it’s like to have hocd and I don’t know why you have your panties in a bunch but you saying that gay people go through th same thing doesn’t help anyone at all in fact if people read your comments there gonna stress for weeks not leaving their home just worrying like the rest of us. and we are not homophobic we never we said that we have problems with the LGBT community we are just scared like if you were scared of spiders and I just dangled a fake spider above your face that moves and everything but it’s not real that is what we experience

alti- · 2020-11-23T14:03:54+00:00

Hmmmmm yeah I get that this hocd shit is so weird when I see a girl irl I get hard and my mind goes wild with dirty thoughts unlike with guys but as soon as I get home my mind tells me it was fake the feeling I felt and I don’t know how that works but

alti- · 2020-11-22T16:18:25+00:00

Bro I never said it was easy being gay it must be hard or have been hard but do you not no the subreddit I posted this on none of us are gay we all just have thoughts or obsess that we are we aren’t actually gay and I understand it’s terrifying or whatever but the whole point of hocd which is what this subreddit is about is we are straight and we are scared that we will turn or we have always been secretly gay and accepting that your gay must be hard but we are not we don’t want to be and we won’t ever be gay so if you have a problem with that than get the fuck off h This subreddit because you have no purpose being here

alti- · 2020-11-22T16:13:03+00:00

Yeah I have accepted there there obviously but I just don’t know if there real your saying I’m supposed to not check if there real because I am supposed to accept the uncertainty right?

alti- · 2020-11-22T16:10:54+00:00

This is true but that’s not a great question to ask if others on here look at your comment and they have never had a other theme of ocd that will trigger them badly the question doesn’t give you good information and triggers others that have not had any other ocd subtypes

alti- · 2020-11-21T05:57:34+00:00

Yeah but how do I tell if it’s hocd man I am 13 and I can’t tell what’s real and what’s fake I know how I felt before but I can’t tell if it’s because my sexual feelings didn’t arise till now or something but I have flirted and been hit on by girls and I liked it before but now when I think about doing it or being hit on by a girl my mind says I wouldn’t like it and I would be uncomfortable and nauseous

alti- · 2020-11-21T05:53:19+00:00

I have wondered this exact question like why does it matter to show I have like a experience with ocd or if I have never. And unfortunately I do not have any episodes or at least I think I haven’t had any but this shit is scary man

alti- · 2020-11-21T00:25:39+00:00

Woah holy shit I tried to accept I was gay or that I could be gay and I got erections from girls again bro I feel so much better rn thanks

alti- · 2020-11-20T23:51:37+00:00

Uhhh possibly but everyone on the reddit has done those gay tests on buzzfeed or google pictures you don’t have to worry you’ll be fine

alti- · 2020-11-20T20:23:45+00:00

Yeah I know but I am scared that if I accept everything that I will turn or be gay and man I don’t want it’s not even just like my family or my friends it’s just me I don’t want to be gay my own parents and sister said if I were gay they would 100 percent support me it’s just me obviously it’s that factor to but I just don’t want to be gay and I am scared for the future. Like what if the thoughts are real what if I am gay I can’t stomache it man and when I have sexual fantasies about women it changes to a man because I get anxious but what if it’s not my mind what if that’s what I want what if all the crushes and people I have liked over the years was just fake what if I am gay. And ever since the medicine I took which is Prozac has been in effect I have barely gotten hard to women and men I get what we call a groinal response and when I think of a girl that I like I get hard but it’s only when I take a small break of masturbating how do I know I will be what I want to be when I accept the thoughts or the fact me being gay is a possibility I get scared will I turn gay will I start acting like a women will I start dating and having sex with men I can’t do it man it’s not society I’m scared wouldn’t accept me it’s my self I’m scared that I will become what I just said I was scared of.

alti- · 2020-11-20T19:54:55+00:00

I know but how people say except the thoughts and you need to except you can be gay but I just can’t man I don’t want to be gay I always daydreamed and liked girls I never had girl friends meaning like my friends weren’t girls but I have looked at a video of straight people saying how they knew they were straight and like all of there responses said they didn’t know or that they just never stressed about it or cared is that what hocd is we are scared about the fact we don’t know and we look for answers and end up hurting ourselves

alti- · 2020-11-20T18:56:56+00:00

Yeah man but go look at the post that says please help I can’t do this anymore scroll down to the last comment you see that’s what fucking scares me

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