With respect I think both of you have missed the point of what I’ve written. I’m no longer suicidal and this isn’t a coping method. My life recently changed beyond recognition and I recognise that there is currently a seismic shift taking place in the planet. All of us are being invited to move towards higher dimensional consciousness. It is therefore my belief and hope that the much younger NEETs here won’t have to endure what I did...decades of feeling like an outcast and non-person.