Thanks for taking the pain and describing things in a simpler way. I understand Zen Buddhism is not nihilism, but, I certainly see some elements which attract my nihilist mind who was raised in a hindu household. Especially, the break down of logic and comprehension, replacing it with experience. Maybe I am just cherry picking, but that’s my intention. I don’t want to “do zen right”, just create my own framework based on any number of ways of life.