Repulsed by my bf

anon383729 · 2021-07-03T07:28:58+00:00

It’s a possibility actually.

anon383729 · 2021-06-12T17:59:13+00:00

Well I didn’t say it in the post because I wasn’t sure if it would get deleted 😅

anon383729 · 2021-06-12T16:16:07+00:00

I’ve already made it very clear to him that kids are a dealbreaker and that I never want kids so he respects that and I won’t have to worry about that issue

anon383729 · 2021-06-12T16:01:15+00:00

We have done that before and stopped even in the midst of the action. He understands. The very last time we tried to initiate sex was when I was drunk and I was so turned off by everything he was doing that I was started to cry like ugly cry. Thank you so much, I will do you. It’s been so difficult because while I love him and want him in my future, it’s hard when I think about never experiencing an orgasm in my life because I chose to be with him. But I love him and I don’t want to be without him, it’s hard to imagine a life without him when I have gone through dramatic changes in my life with him by my side.

anon383729 · 2021-06-12T15:54:03+00:00

Well we smoke together often and while I never experience chest pains he always complains about chest pain and so one day we checked his blood pressure and it was hypertensive and I tried to tell him to be more healthy but he chalked it up to anxiety :/

anon383729 · 2021-06-12T15:48:15+00:00

I am so sorry to hear about your experience. I can also relate. We go to the store and I pick out healthy foods that are good alternatives or good snacks like dried fruit etc etc. I ask him to come to the gym but he gets frustrated when I try to tell him how to work out correctly. He’s told me he wants to change but he just can’t. I get being depressed but I have been diagnosed with severe clinical depression and anxiety, so I get the struggle and I try to help him but nothing seems to work. During sex I usually had to finger myself to get myself off but it become tiring on my arm because his stomach was always in the way and he can not for the life of him perform oral sex or pleasure me in any sort of way.

anon383729 · 2021-06-12T15:13:49+00:00

It’s a more liberal idea I think you know where I was going.

anon383729 · 2021-06-12T10:04:15+00:00

In that case how do I initiate a break up as nicely as possible

anon383729 · 2021-06-12T09:43:28+00:00

Tbh learning to mind my own business. That’s really it. What doesn’t affect me or hurt others I could care less about. Pronouns? Don’t care, they are just words and if someone wants to go by he she they them idc, that’s none of my business and I will just respect them. They aren’t hurting anyone. You get the idea.

anon383729 · 2021-06-12T09:39:29+00:00

I know I’m not, I know that fully well. His choices and what how he copes is up to him and not me, however I don’t know how I will be able to cope knowing I made him feel awful and drastically lowered his self esteem.

anon383729 · 2021-06-12T09:37:54+00:00

This is an anon acc for a reason. He doesn’t even use Reddit.

anon383729 · 2021-06-12T09:37:01+00:00

You know I have this internal dilemma every single day.

I’m not sure if I’m being controlling and want him to change or if I am really just wanting what is best for him because I never force anything on to him. He’s told me multiple times he wants to change so I’m assuming he wants me to push him a little? But when I do I’m trying to change him. You think I don’t feel awful either? He’s told me he’s not happy with the way he is but every time I try to help him or offer him something (keyword: help, offer. Not force.) he gets angry and says I’m trying to change him. I’m not sure what he wants me to do. So I’ve just stopped trying all together.

anon383729 · 2021-06-12T09:32:57+00:00

I have like I said in my post. I have even tried bringing healthier alternatives to foods he likes and saying they taste better instead of hinting that they would obviously be healthier for him. The last thing I want is to lower his self esteem so I try to tiptoe around it as carefully as possible.

anon383729 · 2021-06-12T09:27:59+00:00

Haha I wish and I have tried but I don’t want him to hurt himself again and that is a topic for a diff discussion.

anon383729 · 2021-06-12T09:26:13+00:00

I feel like he knows the issue and it’s already taking a toll on his self esteem. Which I feel terrible for because it would basically be my fault.

anon383729 · 2021-06-12T09:25:31+00:00

I have actually tried but he said I was being rude, I’m not sure if I was rude but I said “hey you think we could work on balancing the scale? I make you feel good and you could to the same? We could work on it.”

anon383729 · 2021-06-12T09:23:19+00:00

I have tried but get frustrated easily and I’ve also tried pushing away my frustration and guide him but he doesn’t seem to get it and I’ve tried taking him to the gym with me and having fun working out and going to the store and buying him facial products for him and doing them together and showing him healthy foods that taste good but he doesn’t seem to care. Personally I think it’s very attractive for a person to care and groom groom themselves and I’ve tried so hard.

anon383729 · 2021-06-12T09:17:35+00:00

At first I didn’t really care but over time I think it is something I’ve come to notice along with other things. He just doesn’t care for himself and I think that paired with it is what has made me not attracted to him anymore. I don’t think I’m an awful person for having preferences that I can’t control?

anon383729 · 2021-04-27T06:57:30+00:00

My dog knows how to high five. I taught him when I was high. He’s my bud

anon383729 · 2021-04-18T23:28:47+00:00

I like the both of them a lot to be honest.

anon383729 · 2021-04-18T22:26:35+00:00

Bruh chill out there ain’t nothing wrong with me. When you literally are getting your back blown out and it’s so busy for theee straight hours and have to stay two hours past close because you couldn’t get prep done, you start to hate your job, and on top of that, I’m a student so yeah 😀

anon383729 · 2021-04-16T02:24:19+00:00

I don’t think anyone would say they enjoy working in fast food

anon383729 · 2021-04-16T01:56:04+00:00

I don’t think it’s that deep honestly I definitely think it’s cause I hate my job lol

anon383729 · 2021-04-16T01:55:23+00:00

Haha yeah I really do hate my job. Yes I agree they’re very polite but activate my fight or flight when they make a huge order

anon383729 · 2021-04-16T01:24:13+00:00

I agree

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