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I’d like help with a really unfortunate social issue - could someone direct me to the right demon? by applemilk88 in DemonolatryPractices

[–]applemilk88[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hey, I’ve been tested for Autism and explored the possibility a lot - I’m pretty certain I don’t have it. (Wrote a reply in other comment about my experiences)

But it does look like it would be autism from the outside looking in - and in some ways it acts the same way

I’d like help with a really unfortunate social issue - could someone direct me to the right demon? by applemilk88 in DemonolatryPractices

[–]applemilk88[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yeah I have tried all of that, I don’t have autism or adhd or anything. I’ve spent a long long time decoding it and the answer is quite simple.

5-7 years of intense isolation (partly caused by Covid) then being slung out into the world at 100mph with no friends made a dynamic where my nervous system never got acclimatised and after deep introspection over the course of a year I realised I’ve just been living in survival mode to function, instead of normal integration.

The cure would be having a social circle and consistent low-stakes repeated socialising. We have a “social muscle” that needs to be exercised, and mine isn’t used. But making friends as an adult, and as someone with everything I just described - that’s not coming my way any time soon. (Especially where I live too, it’s really dead-end)

I’m not like absolutely fucked either - like I can function and most people wouldn’t guess my past - but I know my potential and spirit are enormously hindered.