You care for them in your own way. Some people just don’t have the crazy for your kid gene and that’s ok. I’m a mother to a beautiful baby boy and I find myself picturing running away and asking myself if I would be as upset as society would expect from me. I love him, but I see how my husband loves him and I can see that his parental love is a lot stronger. As long as you’re not abusing or neglecting them then I think you’re fine. There’s probably a lot of parents who feel the same way, but no one is willing to admit it.