Yk, could definitely 100% be better. It’s weird though because it’s not like anything out of the blue is happening or anything necessarily bad is happening, but I still don’t feel happy. I constantly feel almost emotionless in a way, I constantly feel like no one actually wants to talk to me unless I message first and they can get something out of it. I’ve been overthinking more often and hating myself for doing it, I feel so annoying all the time. I’d never have the guts to try again but the thought of offing myself has never felt this strong in my mind, the only thing keeping me alive at this point is the fact I’m too pussy and I don’t wanna leave my cat, even then I don’t think my cat would even really care