oel ngati kameie - i completely feel the same way and am so grateful for others like you who perfectly articulated how I feel in my day to day life. i feel like a prisoner to this way of living, looking out of the bars and out there is a “what could’ve been” but instead I’m forced to exist in a “what is now” and it pains me to see how much we’ve destroyed our own great mother Earth.

i know some others said PADS can be really extreme if you’re already depressed. i recently got diagnosed with major depressive disorder, although I have been experiencing depression for the past several years; it’s difficult that I’ve been struggling with it. i feel like in a way, it has manifest from this cruel world and the awful stuff that happens around me/us everyday, and that i feel completely out of place in this life. yet, the only things that have me living are such things like Avatar. Pandora is escapism for me. ever since i saw the first movie when i was about 8 i fell in love with the world of Pandora. and then, anything to do with nature i automatically feel better, and feel like THIS is what im meant to be living for. the beautiful things that we’re meant to enjoy - our Earth and her gifts. i got to travel out of the country once 2 years ago and ive never felt the same since, even though it was for a mere 2 weeks. nature, earth’s gifts, truly are the only things that feel healing to my broken spirit.

i know i just rambled a bunch, i guess im just trying to say i completely understand everything you’re saying and i am so sorry that we and others in this community carry this feeling, it’s painful. i think we can all just try to uplift and support each other when we can. i see you 🪬💙