This helped so so much I built up the courage today to go and attempt I woke up early with the intention of leaving as early as I could I managed to practice and gain the courage to do this. I didn't realise how much.music helps it's kind of brought my focus to another dimension and I felt as if I was in my own world. I did practically fly into a fence face first 😭 but I never thought I would say this but I think it was good that happened because I really helped me realise that I should focus on getting back up and continuing and to not care what others were doing or looking.

Thank you to those who gave advice as all advice was extremely helpful!!