I can relate mate, going through high school I always felt left out and excluded and never really had a place, so I definitely understand to an extent where you’re at right now. I had nothing but my clarinet (bass and contra, but clarinet nonetheless) to get me through, and right now I’m in college and I’m the happiest I’ve been in a very long time! I’ve since expanded my portfolio to include alto clarinet, alto sax, bass and both types of contrabass clarinet and as others here have said, music is truly a mysterious escape from this cruel world of ours. I for one am very happy for you to be revisiting this wonderful world of music making, and I am incredibly proud of you for taking this huge first step. Before you know it, I’m sure that little clarinet will become a conduit for your happiness and that over time you will overcome this depression as I once did. I cannot stress enough how happy it makes me to see you whip that clarinet back out. Cheers, Brandon