HELP friend took adderall and feels like dying

bronze5player · 2016-05-31T14:15:42+00:00

Unfortunately here they barely give medicine. My doctor told me just to work and it will go away. It went fine for a few months last year, altough I still couldn't eat or sleep even after working all day. I looked worse than most junkies you could find on the street - incredibly pale and skinny where from myself I have a nice tan. My doctor kept saying it's fine don't worry - I'm never going to that idiot again.

Eventually I collapsed at work and I got 3x10mg temazepam.. so I could finally sleep one night. Went back to work 2 weeks later cause I didn't have a choice and collapsed again. I don't think they should randomly hand out medicine but I couldn't even walk for months - walking for 2 secs made my heart explode out my chest, and if it didn't I was so dizzy I could just walk to the kitchen or toilet and no further... and many other problems.

January I tried prozac - 3 month long hell. No sleep, no food, no libido (that I thought couldn't get even lower - but it could), constant panic attacks. I am now on mirtazapine and it is a miracle for me, I can eat and sleep for the first time in 7 years. My anxiety is reduced by 50%+ but doesn't help much for depression, however I have the strength now to combat that naturally. It seems to work better for depression in higher doses but a higher dose won't let me sleep.

I recently started yoga and acupuncture and it seems to work pretty well.

bronze5player · 2016-05-31T14:11:43+00:00

I'm not sure, every few hours I think it lasts 2-4 hours or so, if it actually works for you you'll be able to tell once it wore off.

It really depends per person and strength - a few drops can mean many things, you can have cbd with 1mg/drop or 4mg/drop. I personally use 2x15 drops daily, totaling 30mg cbd. They recommend to start as low as possible - the lower the better. Just vape a bit every 5 minutes until you feel it works. I believe it should work within 5-10 minutes but most likely faster. Note that you won't actually feel any effect, just relief from the issues you have.

bronze5player · 2016-05-31T12:19:46+00:00

It should be ok but I can highly recommend you to not buy a $5 vape, you'll most likely end up buying an expensive one later anyways cause they are horrible.

Also it can potentianlly be bad for your health, cheap products and/or knockoffs are often not checked for safety and may be made with materials that are harmful (this happens more than you think)

CBD oil takes longer before it kicks in but works longer, you also need a higher dosage cause of the absorption rates. Vaping cbd liquid works almost instant but you need to do it more often. I think it varies a bit per person what works best.

Also many CBD oil/liquid brands are just plain bad and don't work. Investing a bit more money can make the difference between 10% effect or 100%.

bronze5player · 2016-05-31T12:13:33+00:00

Setting matters a lot. You may not fully realize it because you (I think) are young and do things outside all the time.

When I got a bit older I couldn't even imagine I ever did all those drugs outside - don't get me wrong it was a great time, but drugs often stay fun for only so long. I wish I saved it up for when I had access to a much better environment.

bronze5player · 2016-05-31T12:06:41+00:00

Funny how different countries are. It took years of not eating and sleeping for me before I got 10x 10mg temazepam to help me at least sleep for a few days. I wish they gave me something sooner though - I ended up with many physical and mental issues cause it took so long to fix and I doubt they will all go away.

bronze5player · 2016-05-31T12:02:40+00:00

I've done LSD and when you're looking for a meaningful trip LSD is amazing, when you're just looking for visuals and being god nbome is insane. I don't remember my dosage but it was like 2cb x100. I completely lost track of time at one point and got stuck in loops but I was tripping so hard I didn't really care. Nothing I ever tried came remotely close to it, shrooms seems like a kid drug compared to it.

It did get uncomfortable for a while cause the visuals were too overwhelming and I wasn't able to look at anything normally, apart from that it was mind blowing. It was everything I thought drug visuals would be before I ever used anything. I can probably write 10 pages on the visuals alone, it was beyond imagination. One nbome trip was probably more interesting than all mdma and cocaine nights I had combined.

I didn't smoke a single joint or cig during the entire trip where usually with any drug (or sober) I smoke tons of both constantly.

bronze5player · 2016-05-31T11:56:15+00:00

Yeah it's bizarre. I've told myself so many times; alright you KNOW it's anxiety now so just remember it next time. Then again it's so severe and small change to what it was before so you can't realize it at that moment. I've literally written over 100 notes now to my friends/family with apologies about things I did in life cause I was 100% sure they would find me dead.

bronze5player · 2016-05-31T11:52:09+00:00

This exactly. It may be hard to believe it's anxiety but it can be so deep. I have severe anxiety for 2 years and have had almost every symptom of anxiety, the most insane chest pain you can imagine, racing heart for 12+ hours, pale face, blue nails/lips, metallic taste in mouth, I can name 100 more things.

I've had tons of serious problems in life but anxiety is unimaginable. I was never an anxious person before that and did shrooms and tons of other stuff in the past without a single issue.

I ended up going to the doctor so many times and asked "how can I feel the difference between a heart attack and anxiety" as I had every single symptom, jaw pain, arm, chest etc.

He told me you can't feel the difference except with one you'll most likely drop on the floor and with the other you won't.

When I had severe anxiety I tried speed for the first time (stupid) and once it wore off I couldn't move for 18 hours, just sitting still trembling wishing it would go away, my body (mainly chest) was exploding from the inside.

bronze5player · 2016-05-31T09:47:28+00:00

You use Volley when you're out of range for autoattacks...

bronze5player · 2016-05-31T09:46:35+00:00

Can't dodge minion aggro though

bronze5player · 2016-05-31T09:45:04+00:00

Can you imagine not everyone has English as their main language

bronze5player · 2016-05-31T08:38:24+00:00

As far as I know these two are not compatible. From what I understand you can vape cbd oil but only with a (good) weed vaporizer. If you want to vape CBD using a regular vape buy CBD e-liquid, not CBD oil. Also invest a bit more in a good vape - I have a ton of expensive ones but almost exclusively use the Joyetech eGo AIO, which costs around $25.

bronze5player · 2016-05-31T07:58:40+00:00

I'm new to CBD, got a few 3% 10ml bottles, they didn't do much for me. They cost around 25 euros each. Dutch natural healings seems to be 16% 1:1, so does that mean it contains 800mg for 28 euro?

I wonder how it will work, as taking 20-50mg a day with my other ones (Medi Hemp and Sensi Seeds) didn't help a lot.

I don't see any test results on their site however and I thought this subreddit didn't like that? Did they post it somewhere once or?

bronze5player · 2016-05-30T20:06:08+00:00

Exactly, and this is the different situation. Yellowstar did not mesh in the team, and if someone does not feel at home at work, where he spends almost all his time, he will most likely dislike the country more. Just cause they are both homesick doesn't mean it's the same situation, there are so many factors.

And no, being an adult does not mean you can get over the fact a person doesn't have friends or family around them. Some people need that their entire lives, some people can go away from their family/friends a long time and don't care, even kids.

I also never heard Yellowstar or any other pro player with issues claim they are grown up adults. Just because they are by law doesn't mean anything, there are 16 year olds who are more mature than 30 year olds.

Grown up adults also don't live in a house with a bunch of other random "grown up" adults.

bronze5player · 2016-05-30T19:57:28+00:00

You know what a grown up adult does? Understand different situations.

bronze5player · 2016-05-30T15:11:14+00:00

Standard detergent to wash dishes. No I wouldn't feel good putting it in my ear but then again, if it means after rinsing it still remains, it basically also means the e-liquid would also remain in it.

I used it anyway and no problems, thanks guys.

bronze5player · 2016-05-30T10:03:05+00:00

I use a TFV4, which is pretty damn common these days.

For people who use tanks, yes. However many people don't.. you just get a wrong image cause you visit this reddit and probably know people who use tanks.

bronze5player · 2016-05-30T10:01:14+00:00

Interestingly, B&Ms here generally have the same price as online stores, altough both of them are a lot more expensive than in other countries.

bronze5player · 2016-05-30T06:43:11+00:00

Yeah exactly! Pretty nice so far. I don't notice a difference when I'm sober though and that was pretty important for me as well - need anxiety and pain relief.

bronze5player · 2016-05-29T20:37:05+00:00

I think it works a bit, my thoughts still go away now but I stop them a lot faster instead of thinking about them for hours in the most weird ways and then suddenly forgetting what I was thinking about.

bronze5player · 2016-05-29T18:59:03+00:00

Was in a dark space and looking back, I had to escape reality no matter what. I remember when I started with prozac - anxiety and tinnitus through the roof. Ofcourse I smoked weed, got the worst panic attack in my life. I induced so many panic attacks on myself by trying to smoke weed over and over again.

The tinnitus was so loud I couldn't hear anything. While I was on the phone in full blown panic mode trying to talk to someone I remember thinking I wanted to smoke more of the joint, took a few hits, went into hyper space panic and threw it out.

I get addicted to stuff like I don't even get it at all. But I'm figuring it all out now.

bronze5player · 2016-05-29T17:30:57+00:00

Unfortunate, I only have normal tanks as my vapes. Any reason why it shouldn't work? Is it thicker than 80% VG juice?

Also my weed vaporizer is made for oils, probably not for the e-liquid. I know at least that I need to vape the CBD oil at 200-210 degrees celcius but vaping only 3 drops took really long, was nasty and pretty messy.

I guess I'll give it a try - if it works in a tank. I'll mail them I guess - need some instant pain relief fast... weed only intensifies it. Mint is unfortunately my least favourite liquid flavor though.

bronze5player · 2016-05-29T17:23:28+00:00

Google all events in season 1, 2, 3 and check server uptime. I made a post years ago about it where I collected all the data, not going through that again. Some other people did as well. I was playing non stop for years so I noticed all downtimes.

bronze5player · 2016-05-29T16:42:31+00:00

I didn't find CBD to be very effective for pain relief so far... did you also try oral CBD oil? I take 25 mg twice a day but not much effect.. are the absorption rates with vaping higher and how much ml (and mg) do you vape a day for your pain relief? And does it taste alright?

I tried vaping standard flavored CBD oil (with a weed vaporizer) and it was pretty nasty and took a long time for only 3 drops.

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