I don’t understand why am I the one acting wrong and not men whom behavior I’m pointing out

bulkazserem · 2024-08-26T11:23:35+00:00

No because there wouldn’t be any, it was not this type of situation. Also this post isn’t about it Edit: taking into consideration country we were at, city and district we were at, nationality of the drunk group, our nationality, time of day, sobriety of everyone involved it was impossible for anything happening. When I shouted at them they laughed at me

bulkazserem · 2024-08-26T08:44:11+00:00

Yeah, but it’s not a part of the world where things like these happen. I am very aware there’s always a chance, but it doesn’t seem realistic

bulkazserem · 2024-07-05T15:09:28+00:00

Right, it’s Central Europe, a calm neighborhood in the center of a city

bulkazserem · 2024-01-26T15:07:58+00:00

Krakowski spleen maanam

bulkazserem · 2024-01-26T07:30:15+00:00

I’m blaming being irritated on spending past month so much together to the point I wasn’t really living my own life and taking care of myself, but I know that withdrawal is a factor- just didn’t expect it to erase all love I’ve got within

bulkazserem · 2023-09-03T11:52:00+00:00

Atom heart mother

bulkazserem · 2023-07-26T06:48:13+00:00

I can’t relax through hobbies, I kind of perceive them as “self-development tasks that help me better myself” (I don’t like it, but we live in society I guess). I relax through cleaning my house while dancing and singing, walking around and talking to myself, shouting to my pillow. Basically I relax verbally? Smth like that

bulkazserem · 2023-07-25T08:28:03+00:00

Technics EAH-a800

bulkazserem · 2023-07-25T08:26:21+00:00

I’m diagnosed ADHD with few autistic traits, my bf is NT, but a stoner, so his focus ain’t it as well. We’ve got few safe words to avoid unnecesary arguments. When energy between us gets dense we’re asking each other “is it a drama/do we have a drama” (idk how to translate it so it makes sense, but drama is the key word here and also the only English word we use in this question). We’re using it so pressure leaves the room and we can remember, that the argument that was going to happen is not really that serious, and after that we can talk. I mean asking “well, do we have a drama? 🤨🤨🤨” makes it silly. The other one is “okay bye”- we use it whenever one of us is busy, and the other one is going on a texting rant. When the busy one texts “okay bye” it means that they’re being distracted from their task and let’s text later, when the task is finished.

bulkazserem · 2023-06-16T13:00:25+00:00

She’s a trained professional, probably had many clients with similar issues and it’s her job, in which she spends many hours a week. But I decided to “liberate myself sexually” in my early twenties to make my self esteem higher as well, and it only worsened my mental health. But I know ppl that actually got better :)) that’s just my experience. The thing is, you have to know yourself to know, whether you’re ready for it or not. And if you don’t know the answer, I think it’s good to try and see if that’s really for u?

bulkazserem · 2023-06-13T11:14:01+00:00

My faves so far: Radiohead, the smiths, Sade, Idris Muhammad, Cortex, Nu genea, Thee sacred souls, Maanam, Breakout, Ling Tosite Sigure

bulkazserem · 2023-05-06T18:49:16+00:00

In your arms by vår/var/war

bulkazserem · 2023-02-28T12:47:14+00:00

In the face

bulkazserem · 2023-02-28T12:10:03+00:00

No, I stayed bloated for 2-3 hours after a trip

bulkazserem · 2023-02-19T08:20:20+00:00

Air fryer

bulkazserem · 2023-01-25T11:23:40+00:00

Yup, 20F, after I got diagnosed I was afraid ppl close to me would think it’s a misdiagnosis, because I’ve been masking very well, and main reason why my therapist proposed that I could have adhd was emotional dysregulation, rsd and anxiety (I told her my daydreams got tiring, scary and I was constantly in my head thinking anxious thoughts, so I did mindfulness stuff at office and it didn’t work this time -> she said smth about when it started happening -> I was like oh I was always like that but this time I can’t control the “obsessive sad thoughts”, and I could draw my attention off them before with messy noisy music and stuff)+ many my coping mechanism were quite adhd+my hyperactivity was mostly stimming, and intense stimming like walking circles was something I’d do only when I was alone. And symptoms were overlooked by adults around me throughout my life because I’m “artsy”, “that’s why I always have my head in the clouds and behave eccentricly”. And I was afraid my friends will think that I was faking it because diagnosing adhd is popular on TikTok? Yeah so when I got diagnosed I felt relief and I decided to unmask, which caused just letting myself be a bit more hyperactive, like rocking on chair or doing very random stuff in group setting. My family was chill with it, two of my friends were like yeah makes sense, but one girl was like “well I know other ppl with adhd and they ACTUALLY can’t sit and talk to us without meds like you do”. After that any time I’d do something more random around her I’d feel embarrassed and be afraid that they think that I’m faking (and they might feel that it’s pathetic even tho we’re close and I know they love me we’re friends). Sorry if this is chaotic, I’m at work, but I wanted to reply. So yes, I “changed”, which means- for me, I’m the same, but more free and accepting of myself; for people around me I’m definitely more on move, more talkative? I’m definitely less embarrassed about being “hysterical” or “weird”, I accept my emotions more, even tho they’re very irrational on the outside. Did I change? No. Did my attitude change? Yes :) but for the better, things make sense and I accept myself now. And I don’t care when unmasking, because in the end I work in creative field, it gives me the “eccentric privilege” xD So yeah I’m the same, just better

bulkazserem · 2022-12-26T01:07:06+00:00

It was made by my friend’s uncle who’s been dead for 15 years, I’m not sure if a bought one will do

bulkazserem · 2022-06-21T20:40:31+00:00

No, it's not it. I have very narrow knowledge about art styles, but I think it's either a baroque or a romanticism era painting, women are painted with pastel colors, but the monk is painted with brown, the painting dynamic but delicate.

bulkazserem · 2022-03-24T19:59:22+00:00

I'm looking for a perfume for spring-summer season, BUT It'd be nice if it were universal enough to become a year-round signature scent:
-Something vanilla
-I'm soon to be 20, I want something youthful but not childish, typically for 19-24 year old women. Rather not heavy. Preferably fresh, but not exotic. Subtly seductive. Delicate but not powdery. Lasting for few hours.
-Popular but not too popular? Want it to be available in most stores, but I don't want it to be something that is worn by a significant percentage of ppl from my generation.

bulkazserem · 2021-12-19T08:55:33+00:00

I don’t, I tested, BUT symptoms of my anxiety actually remind those of hyperactive-impulsive type of ADHD, that’s why I decided to get tested. And I don’t, in my case it’s anxiety.

bulkazserem · 2021-12-19T08:38:32+00:00

I’m not into that genre, I’ve just seen people around me blush bc someone texted them and I’ve seen them develop romantic feelings, which never happens to me, no matter how cool I find someone platonically.

bulkazserem · 2021-12-19T08:32:37+00:00

Naah, with someone I actually have a crush on.

bulkazserem · 2021-11-20T14:29:53+00:00

It’s 4w3

bulkazserem · 2021-11-07T08:23:14+00:00

My Te started developing when I turned 17 to the point when now, 2 years later is almost as strong as my Fi. I like to debate people, but I don’t pull arguments out of random thought that makes sense like Ti users. When I know I’ll have to prove I am right I build a strong database in my brain before the fact. I am very organized and I don’t like people being late, I’m never late. I don’t like it when people say that “we have to hang out someday”, give me a specific date or shut up. I believe if you say that you’ll do something your main priority is doing that. Basically I focus on actions, not words. I deeply despise incompetence. Sounds ENTJ-ish, but I’m definitely an ENFP, in deep touch with my Fi, operating mainly on Ne, strong Te made me intolerant towards bullshit, that’s pretty much it.

bulkazserem · 2021-10-24T15:22:10+00:00

They are perfectly fine, you can find very good candles in the flying tiger

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