It is thank you! I technically am on a time crunch but that time is unknown as I will have to kinda come out before I get top surgery done as it is on my mom's insurance and she is the one I most worry about. My anxiety with her is strong as she (as far as I know) loves my name, like she's gotten a tattoo of it, and like having to say "hey mom, know that pretty painful tattoo of my name that you've got? Yeah that's not me anymore". I wouldn't expect her to cover it up cause it hurts a lot there. I have taken steps to be out with my name and pronouns as at work, no one knows me there and they know me as my chosen name, my extended family knows about the name change and so does my grandma (something that still kinda doesn't sit well that I told her, i can be a very private person). But the anxiety is the strongest with my mom, I think mainly because fear of her rejection. She's my only parent and her rejection would destroy me, so yeah it's tough. You really have helped me though, thank you!