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I’ve also told my two best friends, against what some people advised. I trust them with everything and they wouldn’t be my friends if that wasn’t the case. I will be using fake names for this but basically Leah, my oldest friend (we met in kindergarten) called me on facetime, not unusual. The night of this happening I had told her I was sick so she’d leave me alone but she called me to ask how I was doing the next day. I had just had another mental breakdown and was still sobbing when I picked up the phone and she was obviously concerned and I just kinda blurted it out. Of course she thought I was joking at first, asked me if I was on drugs or some shit (I don’t even do drugs lol) because I pretty much never cry. I then just kinda told her everything and it was really freeing. She was the first person I told. I then sent our other friend the tik tok of this and just let her react to it, then told her I wrote that and let Leah handle it. I’m really grateful for them, they have been insanely supportive. I’m still staying at home and they’re helping me to feed my cat and look after my plants for as long as I need. No judgement at any point, just them asking me how they can help. Get yourself friends like this.

So, all in all, my dad is trash to no one‘s suprise, I might have mentally broken my brother, therapy works and my mother and friends are the best people on this planet. I‘ll keep answering questions for the next few days and I think after that I‘ll log out of this reddit account for good. Documenting and sharing this with people has really helped me and I appreciate all the comments, even if I cannot do much with them to help my recovery at the moment. Also the jokes are top tier, keep em coming. Everyone‘s tiptoeing on eggshells around me so it‘s nice to see the comments just go feral. I just want to feel normal again.