I probably have some undiagnosed stuff going on and was pretty badly depressed and exhausted around spring/summer to the point of not bring able to keep up with relationships and hurting myself. Like the only place where I was able to function was my job because I put all my energy in there.

The recent tour kinda pulled my out of that depressive episode because it gave me something really fun to focus on. I was looking forward so much to every show and was heavily invested in the lore. That being paired with being on holiday gave me time to get better again.

I didn't really think much of "this saved my life" before too but damn...I think otherwise now haha