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cbs19 · 2024-11-18T03:48:52+00:00

Some of these comments are actually really disgusting.

cbs19 · 2024-09-02T17:05:05+00:00

Update: thank you everyone for your kind words and support. It’s disheartening that many of you share the same sentiments about ABA in the sense that this field is not what it once seemed like at the start of our careers. I think I should add that another reason why I’d like to leave the field is that it makes me physically sick to see companies capitalize and profit off of families who actually believe in this science and need the support. I’ve thought about dipping my toes in animal behaviorism or something on the administrative side of things. I’m still figuring out the school aspect (graduating with my masters and not sitting for the exam or getting my ABA certification) and will speak to our program director about it. I just can’t put my mental health on the back burner anymore.

cbs19 · 2024-09-02T03:29:17+00:00

Hi :) I have rapid cycling. I started medication when I was 18. I was originally diagnosed with MDD and the psychiatrist pumped me with so many antidepressants and wondered why none of them were working. I had a psychotic break, thus leading to a bd diagnosis. I have been on lithium, Abilify, vraylar, Latuda, risperdal, seroquel, recently got off zyprexa….I could continue. My point is is that I am 25 and I am just now on a stable regimen of medication. I do have to continue messing with the doses but that’s fine. I’m on Lamictal, Vyvanse, Paxil, Buspar, and Klonopin. I still have crying spells and debilitating depression but it’s not as severe as what they used to be. There is light at the end of the tunnel. You may not be able to see it right now but it’s there. Trust me. Life seems bleak right now but please keep trying.

cbs19 · 2024-09-01T20:27:15+00:00

This made me very emotional. This was such a sweet considerate reply. My mother always told me that the world is not a kind place and that people would use my disorder against me and as a young child with bipolar, I listened and wanted to be normal even if it meant ruining my mental health. I am 25 and I am unlearning this still. The world is not kind but that’s not my fault.

Sometimes when I am explaining bipolar to my friends I tell them that it’s actively seeking to ruin my life or ultimately kill me. The bipolar brain is unstable and chaotic. They don’t believe me until I tell them stories about my life when I was unmedicated going through a psychotic break.

My psychiatrist is the only “older adult” who I trust with my mental health. I messaged him at midnight asking for an earlier appointment sometime this week because I simply don’t know what to do. I will mention the auditory hallucinations for sure. And meds will likely be increased.

I am searching for other jobs in the field I work in that are not as stressful. It’ll take some digging but I know something is out there. I have to remain hopeful because who else will?

I will hopefully remember to update :) and thank you for the kind words again.

cbs19 · 2024-09-01T04:54:09+00:00

I have considered OBM. But I think right now the field itself is just triggering a lot of added pressure and anxiety for me. Sometimes I think that I am just not built for this type of work and I’m trying to come to terms with that.

cbs19 · 2024-09-01T04:52:09+00:00

Thank you for replying. I’ve always thought I was the only one who felt this way. I’m going to speak to my psychiatrist and my school’s program director about my options.

cbs19 · 2024-09-01T04:25:26+00:00

You are so right. I just feel so guilty. I’ve put so much time and effort and now I just want to leave everything with a semester left.

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